changes of life

3 months of Semester break is finishing in 4 days, yesh!!! class is reopening on 15th Feb! woolaaaa~~!! I'm excited. First goal of 2012 is to maintain the result like how I did in Sem 1. Bravo to myself, right, I'd forgotten when but since then, I promised to myself that I will never failed to meet my own expectation and to myself, I'm giving the highest expectation and achievements. Perhaps this is the difference between the old and the new me. Undoubtedly, I'd became more and more confidence than ever but good thing about it is, I'm not arrogant. blah! who cares what you think, it's my life it's my blog. I'm just jotting down things happened in my life to remind myself and to see how I grow. Hi, I'm me, I love mumbling to myself :D oh yeahh~!

Bad thing about school is, some friends are leaving or transferring to INTI Subang (blame Laureate, you sucks!!)

Two persons to be remembered. PZ and 'bro'. Anyway, I wish you both good luck on your choice altho you both will never see this blog forever (unless I tell you to see) teehee~!

Life's going on. We are growing up. I realize, perhaps the hardest part of life is to grow up mentally. If you think that life is about 'Eat Pray Love' then forget about it, you sucks. Many things happened within these months. I'd been through a lot and I realize, being mature and grown up are not what I thought it was. I'm re-defining 'mature' and 'grown up'. To remind myself here of being Mature and Grown Up. Summary and cutting off the details:

1. The way of treating people and myself. 

(No doubt I DID NOT treat the others disregarding to my own conscience but after many things happened, there it is, new resolution. Treat everyone like how they treat you. Fair. Here is a little ceremony, mourning to her and welcome the brand new one.)

2. Talk lesser. complain lesser. trust lesser. 

Growing up seems to be hard but challenge accepted and conquered. I'm again, glad of myself. 

Now I'm a grown up person. At least I know I am, deep down inside my heart. :)

I love my life, undoubtedly. I have great true best friends, awesome gang of friends-L4TP and my group of kendo friends. Actually I realize having older friends are good as they experience more than I do and they can give advice. I know I did not mess up with wrong persons, at least I don't need anyone of you to differenciate good or bad, or even teach me to mix with anyone else. It's my life and I'd NEVER did a wrong decisions of making decision and of course making friends so far. Time pass and time proves everything, I'm not regret of anything yet.

Although I appreciate and love my life now, but still, I would like a try.

If I can escape from this city, I just wish I could escape to a place that nobody knows me at all and start a whole new life there. I'm looking forward to next year. smile :)

revolution

I'm back to blog, no reason, just because I feel like it.
I wouldn't delete anything or change anything here, just let it be like it. Life's going on. Neither did I re-read anything because it isn't necessary too. The other main reason is because.. I'm lazy to create a new one blablabla.. teee heee~!
Okay, done the 'opening speech'.
Next post onwards will be the life of mine now.

I'm embracing every now and then gratefully :)

why grey ? because it's as dull as grey

every morning every night,

when my eyes are still blinking and looking,

waiting,

but no,

i dont get it any longer.

disappointment.

if you ask me will i regret if i'd nvr wake up again

i say no,

everything i do ,

i did it with my best.

so if tmr nvr came again ,

imma nvr regret for myself.

i did , i thought , i tried , i felt.

but oh , i cant feel the warmest heartbeat.

it was like that , it is like this.

take it and do it the best or leave it.

to do or not to do , imma gonna put it a smile.

becos,

i'm tan.hui.mei.

and nobody could ever replace this.

=)

it's all about nature

guys ,do you know about the mechanism of immunity ? let me explain.

antibody, the Helper T-cell in your immune system will be triggered if it detects antigens.
it'll then produce interleukin , this chemical triggers the killer T-cell and plama cell from B cell.
The Killer T-cell will then produce cytotoxin to kill the pathogen which some may attach on the surface of macrophage on the MHCII.
Antigen is destroyed , B cell then produce memory cells for the next invade of the same pathogen.
So , you see ? human's immune system is awesome. It make you immune to it. and eventually it has no effect when the pathogen invade ur body again.

So , be optimist !
nothing is gonna bring you down ( unless you've poor immune system LOL )

i learn and i'm perfect and yes! no one of you should oppose this statement.
maybe this is it :
perfect makes me bend more and more.
=)

have a nice day !

when you want to do something ,

do it at the best.

ohhhh wait ? isnt bio paper over? hahahahahahahahaha !! so be it !

random post of excitement

hey hey hey hey hey !
my freedom is waving to me and i am seeing it so clearly now !!
2 more hours and i am freee !
why 2 hours ? because i will probably finish studying everything by 12am and sleep , so .
dont count the sleeping hours, quarantine time is also excluded , then exam , of course it's not included too !
after that ? ohhhh 12.30pm tmr !!!! i'm totally truly deeeply madly happily nutly freakly crazily freee..
hey do u see the words ? I MEAN...
FREE !!!
okay i shall stop typing now so tat i can fully utilised the 2 hours remained.
byeeeee ~

wheeeee

and so ! i left one day of examination !
hey people !
bloooody ONE !

HAPPY ? SCARY ? I SUPPOSE BOTH !

first of all , i cant wait to flung all my stackssss of books tonnes of notes and so and so and so !!! =D

lots of happiness gushing from my little excited heart !
ohh what about scary ? yeahhh scary !
because one year is over just like that , it indicates.........
okay , i suppose to stop saying that , be happy ! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~!

ps : i like this bottle quite a lot , perhaps it was the childhood memories that attracted me .

someday i'll wish upon a star,

and wake up where the stars are far behind me,
where trouble metls like lemon drops,

away above the chimney tops,

that's where you'll find me!

HEY PEEPS ! LET'S GO BIKINI PARTAAAAYYY !!
(imagine readers here have their jaw drops and look at me with their queer face.)
oooopppsss.. i forget this is not a right country , at least i dont wish to put myself on a risk for a criminal crime. and ohh ! i dont have a crystal blue sea and white soft sands with hermit crabs peeping my toes from its hole. =p

hmmmm..this place had been my top list for some places of honeymoon,always will be =)
( i suppose only one person knows what is the exact place of the piacture above. geeeeez )

LET'S GO MOVIE AND CHILIS !
ohh yeshh ! this is practical now . how much i miss burgers in chilis ! mmmmm.... =d

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biology time , byes ~
GOOD LUCK FOR THE LAST TIME , HSC-IANS ! LET'S DO IT !

found some nice pictures in my camera ,

so i suppose i will have at least 2 posts queueing up here.

dreams

some random and (boring/funny/lame/weird) post to share.
ps : i'm not gonna post any celebration event or any picture posts due to the lack of time ( final exam is on fri ) SCREAM WITH PRESSURE *
however , i still need to take some times to relax and come to blog. x) .
whisper : i am still tv series ! O.O KILL ME PLEASE*
just to record down some weird dreams i dreamt these weeks, kinda funny thou.

1. i dreamt of myself sitting for the HSC final exam. the students were all my high school school mates.the teacher in charge is my primary school teacher named as APPLE PIE or RABBIT BIN. shit ! we hate her ! and the exam hall is somewhere like a concert hall ,very nice.. uhhh !! now i rmb ! it's MYOB concert hall ! qi , the hall appeared in my dream LOL !!! duhh !! and you knw what ? i forgot to bring any stationery to exam and i'm a bit late !! so i just simply took others stationery where they put outsite the hall , and one of the stat. i took is FELICIA LIM's. what a 4 in 1 weird dream !from primary to pre-u. damn ! ps : i'm under pressure i suppose.

2.at the beginning of the dream , i'm in a toilet , the toilet is a weird toilet , which you can pass throught it to another room of toilet , which mean it has no privacy tho it has door which can lock as usual. the worst part is , when i stood up and look at the other toilet ( which has nobody , luckily ) i saw a GOD DAMN FROG ! it saw me and it said : YES MADAM !" then immediately right after the 'yes madam' , it jumps to my toilet ! omg !!! so i sneak to another toilet and IT CHASED ME !!! i ran to the living hall , who knows its speed is like rocket !!! goodness know ! you know what ? it has very sharp teeth and it wanted to bite me ! and when i'm hiding in somewhere else.........
i'm awake because some stupid ppl call me on my phone. but thanks to her or i've to stay in the nightmare ! hahahaha..

3.there's a heavy rain and it flood all way from the jelutong highway to dono-wat-named-highway which we used to go to qb. you know wat ? i dreamt myself parked my car at INTI , it's late night , i realized it and i've to go back to take my car.so i CYCLE to INTI! weird part is , when i was cycling , it's day time !? hahahaha.. it was still a heavy rain , and flood , so i'm all wet yet still hv to cycle ! and i met HERRICK RIDING MOTORCYCLE ! hahahahaha !! i kept cycling the wrong road.damn...to my surprise , i cycle faster than vehicles which drive at the right lane ! LOL !!!!
ps: i wonder what bicycle is that. but somehow it looked very old and kolot in the dream.

4. i dreamt myself sitting for exam again. 3 times in total.

the end.
shit..i have to go study again. bye ~

damn it !

imma gonna kill !

so frustrated !!

good bye my INTI friends

and so , i'm back from INTI college , for the last time.
i feel reluctant i feel sad ,i'm down but wat to do ? this is life.
i'm about to go to another chapter of life again thou this is a really short one yet a nice one.
dont feel like talking too much today , i just want to observe everyone clearly and make them into a print in my journey.
before i came back , i went into the last place , the only one place i want to enter so much >>> miss leela's office. so , opened the door , entered.
telling her something , some last words i guess. she too , gives me some encouragements some advices and some good luck says stuff..feeling very nervous , not because im talking with her but because i'm controling some  you-know-what-glands. but well , i did it well . ( whisper : just not after i get into my car )
i rmb i once went into her office before , and tat's the epic one , not to mention of course , a private stuff.
today was the last day i go into class,
today was the last day i listen to the lecturers teaching,
today was the last day i can laugh at some funny students,
today was the last day i can sit with a few of my friends in my good friend list and girls talk,complain,this and that,
today was the last day i come to class with my dearest friends and beloved,
today was the last day we keep poking me and draw on my hand and 'bully' me,
today was the last day we can sit together and discussing about questions,
today ...
was really the last day we can ever be classmate,  5++6 months , very short yet a lot of sweet memories , how much i want to be classmate with you again but i just freaking cant.shit !
not to mention the feeling of how much i dunwan to leave the pre-u life , because everyone should know how sorrowful it is.
life goes on,
but , my toughness still does not move well.
GOOD LUCK CLASSMATES , MATES , FRIENDS , GOOD FRIENDS , BESTIES.

leela's celebration and some pictures with classmate will be posted when i'm free.

ps: final external exam is just around the corner ,6 days to go. 

i'm actually , a weak person.

we love you

year comes year ends 
time flies like an airplane;
if you dont enjoy it, you'll end up suffer in agony and dismay 
if you do,you will not realize times sneak away.

it was a touching memories recorded in my pre-u chapter.
in this day, 30 sept, a strict yet humour legend was borned.
yes, she's the legend among all the teachers and lecturers, i couldn't deny she is a very successful lecturer.
she's relatively strict, she scolds people badly and horribly ,
she tease people with a very irony way with something like :
" you know what is gong kia ? gong kia is you ! "
" whoever add me in facebook before this course ends is a moron , they don't have any thinking skill , thinking skill is a total zero, because they let me check out what they do and say in in fb."
" this simple chemistry question can be answered by a baby or a kindergarten kids. "
however , she add some jokes sometimes :
" the pollution causes the BAFFALOS dont have fun times with COWS anymore" ( okay, are cows and baffalos friends ever since ? LOL !!! )
" the examinor is a fierce man , OLDER THAN ME , HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE , ANGRY ... " ( well , these facts dont make a man being impatient and it's not actually a fact but a says from her LOL )
her jokes arent just an oral jokes , she adds some facial expression if it's available from the jokes, something like the :
- b'nnnggg face ( b'nggg = blur , according to her )
- shouts when her favourite tv shows end at the climax
- cute fake smile yet a very irony one
- suffocate face when suffering from alkalosis.
no doubt, everyone is very afraid of her , even english school or malay schools guys.
she is so , yes , but everyone respect her , a lot a lot !
she is so , yes , but everyone will still love her even after she scolds us badly.
but , we know , we know she's scolding us with reason and for our goodness sake.
so no matter how bad she scolds us , right after class dismiss , we'll still respect her and love her.
now, it left only one bloody week before our final study break and graduate from pre-u.
for me , i have a sudden realize that time just flies away without me realizing it.
i'm sad ,
i'm not willing to graduate away from her class,
and i....
i started missing her already...

year comes year ends,
time,
flies like an airplane.
happy birthday, miss leela ,
i wish you all the best, stay healthy , stay happy, stay strict, stay humour,
be the best lecturer especially the chem lecturer.
we love you.

up coming post : miss leela's bday celebration.

i'm gonna cherish the last week nx week.

til then, tears drop dramatically now.

bcos, i love you, miss leela.

i am.

fear is overwhelming

helpless

afraid

sad.

but all of sudden

you're here.

you swap all my fear away

i know,

i'm a grown up lady.

that i've someone who love me

and be by my side when i need you.

it's a touched

that i couldnt express

of the sudden 180 degree turning of my mood.
your hug
is always the best and warmest cure

ILY.

am i a sadist ?

only those who understand me well know. 

shit.

come ! let me tell you a story of our great government.
just sit down , relax and listen  to me. =)
I am legally 18 months ago yet i havent change my Identical card.
one fine day( wth ),i went to register for my passport due to the needs. here the story starts......

i reached the passport department (PD) early in the morning but the officer told me that i have to renew my IC to the 18 years old one.. oh crap. wat the hell , which means i hv to go to the IC department (ICD) located at ansun road to renew my IC.
that man told me that i need to get THE PIECE OF PAPER for my new IC as i cant get my IC so fast..
well , i rushed to ICD. i took the number and waited.
" sorry mr and mrs , due to the down line of our system , the registration of the new IC is now unavailable , please wait for a while to let our system get back to its function"
ughhh ! holly ~! okay..wait..wait..wait....
but wat the fuck !! we waited from 8 something til 10 something , start feeling irritating. so went out for lunch and went to some colleges to ask for some stuff..
so we expect it to be okay after we went back , but no !!
waited for another while , then mum decided to send me to college for class and go to sungai ara there to do after my class.
after my class , it was 4pm.
straight away went to sg ara there to do those shit , finally.i get the PIECE OF PAPER.

in the next day , i woke up at 6 something to queue up so that i can settle those stuff b4 my 8am class started.
"SORRY MISS, YOU HAVE TO GET THE IC SEMENTARA ( IC temporary ) ONLY YOU CAN DO YOUR PASSPORT."
"FUCK!? AINT YOU PEOPLE TOLD ME TO GET THIS PIECE OF PAPER , WHAT'S NOW?"
"THIS IS NOT THE IC TEMPORARY, THIS IS THE RECEIPT"
"FUCK YOU MAN, YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT YOU WANT IC SEMENTARA , ONLY A PIECE OF SHIT PAPER !"
anger fill me , but shit ! i still have to go to ICD anyway.
so went to ansun road there to get that shit.
"SORRY MISS , YOU REGISTER IT AT SG ARA THERE , YOU CAN ONLY TAKE YOUR IC SEM. THERE NOT HERE"
"WHAT !? YOUR SYSTEM DOWN LINE AND THE WHOLE PENANG DOWN LINE TOGETHER , WHY CANT I JUST GET IT HERE ? DONT YOU TELL ME ITS DIFFERENT !"
" SORRY, BUT YOU CAN ONLY TAKE IT THERE , THIS IS THE PROCEDURE"
"FUCK PROCEDURE"
okay !!!! what the hell twice ! so we headed to sg ara again and get it.
then travel back to PD to do my passport.
it was kinda late , like 9 something or 10. now my number is 100+ away which means i hv to wait 100+ more ppl to go.
so we waited from the morning til the afternoon, around 2pm+
did it , but still have to come back 2 hours later to get the passport.
2 hours later , i finally get it.
ohh...
seeee??
WHAT A GREAT GOVERNMENT WITH GREAT SYSTEM OF MALAYSIA.
i guess this is how they work..
uhhh ~! two days wasted for all these shits..issssshhhhh....

i do.

Doubt that the stars are fire,
doubt that the sun does move,
doubt truth to be a liar,
but never doubt I love.

becos i'm tan hui mei.

IUY

just like a girl who hit by a vehicle,

its a great accident.

and she ?

she had lost her memories,

gradually being another person.

until someday,

accident hit her and she woke up.

she realized how much things have changed.

but sorry,

she cant leave what she has now.

but something good is that she remember everything back.

she compares the two lives,

the two personalities,

the two conditions.

yikeesss...

love,

is an accident.

the way i love you.

i could make you happy make your dream comes true,

nothing that i wouldnt do.

go to the ends of the earth for you,

to make you feel my love.

简单幸福

忽然间，

不想长大，

不想上大学。

上了大学，

我，

会。很。孤。独。

你，不要离开我好吗？

我不舍得。。

我想，我会以泪洗脸吧!

我要简单幸福。。。

i'm 25 years old.

we have had this opera favourite in august, organized by fingerprints choir.

sponsered by hair impression and clover make up academy.

ps : well this saloon really impressed me by making me older by 10 years.. omg... =(

but i guess it was alright, because opera is abt old british men and women.

actually this post suppose to be published months ago, unfortunately, i had my trial. so i didnt.

now let the pic talk,imma lazy to type. X)

this was the song with king kong.

i was acting her maid. successful right ? xD

omg ! su lynn's hair style is like mr mcd, the red hair man. =D

next, being a couple and dating at the park.

grand finale. gypsy ! loving it !

actually there were around 20 songs. i was just involve in a few. so that was all.

group photo! *wink*

two way traffic(language)

好山良许

运青缘愿

相水千成

随秀里真

美梅蕙陈

景吐吉酒

天艳祥香

just like this materpiece,

it indicates the starting point of our journey,

and its not gonna be an expire day on anyday else.

eenie meenie mani mu.

T.R.I.A.L
okay.. it's really driving me crazzzzzeeeehh !!

but alright, i'm kinda satisfied with my english and math extension paper X)

tho i dont expect much on extension. heeee

O.M.G

why am i here writting crap ?

chem tmr, thurs bio, fri math.

and i'm freeeeeeeeeee ~!

this coming inter-sem. break will be so interesting !

toodles ~

oh, i'm gonna blog abt my old english woman(aunty) style after trial.

stay tune.

♥

我想独自到遥远的地方，
沿着沙滩上
海浪留下的
痕迹，
平行地跟着线条走；
听着海浪拍打海岸的声音；
也留下了
足下的
痕迹。


一个人躺着柔软的沙滩，
望着天上无数个星星
一闪一闪，
仿佛在催眠我入睡
然，
却不忘了带着我所有的回忆
一闪一闪的在脑海闪过。


喧嚣的城市里，我依然找不到那股宁静 。
对不起，我给不了你最好的东西
但我却能给你
最
好
的
回
忆 
。

回忆，还不会是历史，

因为，还未完待续。