tournament ^.^ ? T.T v

taekwondo tournament is around d corner..
it's on this sunday..
normally , i will be very excited..
but ...
i'm not for this time...

i hv to spar v ashley again...
i dunwan .. >.<
i am like just over 0.3kg only , then hv to go to the other category which is d category i am in now...
how can they be so cruel !!!!!
if more than 0.5kg , then go to other category ..
it's okay la...
but...T.T

bcz of this...
i am in d same category v ashley !!!
although i spar v her b4...
but i dunwan lar !!!

i want to get gold medal again..
i want get gold medal for d 3rd time, continuosly...
u know..
this is so so pressure...
if lose , means...
T.T
but if win it's still okay la..

bcz when once u get gold...
u will hv d strong feelinf of ...
errr...
like dunwan to get silver or bronze anymore..

wish me good luck then...