so?

i'm in a very big dilemma now ..

there's a trip to pulau redang that is FREE for 4 ( ONLY ) of the sosam committee , it's FOC ( Free Of Charge ) man ! well..wat we need to pay for the 2 days trip is ONLY T-W-E-N-T-Y bucks ! and i already wanted to go pulau redang since last year .. now it's the chance..

but there's the problem.
my dear JK is performing his idiot drama , main cast. wth !?
and it clash the trip ! so i wonder if i should go to the trip or not.

reason for going :
1 : i dont wanna see the scene of hugging and being touched by some other idiots on his ( chest and head and face and wateva ).i know he doesnt want her to touch either but wat to do ? it's the freaking D-R-A-M-A. it's not that i am not generous enough or jealous. wait , alright , i am jealous. but wat ! it's normal right ? if i dont feel jealous , it means that i dont care of him. *grunt*
2 : it's the trip i wanted to go since last year.
3 : it's FOC !
4 : this is the final chance for this year due to the changing of monsoon ( like quite soon ). or else , i will have to wait til next year ( AGAIN )

reason for not going :
1 : drama. ( but i think i'd clarified very clear in the first reason above )

from the whole post , it seems that i should have go , but...
uhh !! wateva !

go or not ?

random.

~ joke of the day ~
mum : hey you knw there's my friend who is a psychologist..she has gt mental problem now ...
me    : why ?
mum : because she meets those stress or lil psycho people everyday . she talks and consults them everyday , she feels so stress at the end , and she also gt a mental prob now. so u better consider wisely..
me    : * laugh non stop *

i'd made my decision , anyway.

my life is very contented now , except the fact that joshua had left us.

the last says to joshua :

i remembered you asked me to organize a trip to monkey beach , however , i did not. if it is , it's around this time . i remembered you asked me to help u to organize ur farewell party in d hotel , i did not. i just leave it for you. these two events failed to organize at the end.

sorry , i am not a good president. i am so sorry . your president doesnt rocks as u said. =(  

maybe god loves you more , because you're really a great person.

and it might be a relief for you , you wont suffer in earth anymore , enjoy youself in heaven !

you're always so optimistic , so cheering and we wont hear no laughter whenever you're around us. 

i remember u once asked me , if i as a taekwondo player fight with a karate player , who will win ?

i told you , i dono ? maybe me ? then smile. and u told me :

NO ! YOU MUST BE CONFIDENT ! 

then i said it loudly , YES ! I WILL WIN !

you laughed with joy and said : YES MAN ! I LOVE THIS ! 

you always ask us to be confident , i will remember it forever. 

i also remember you told me that me and liang sun make a nice and sweet couple , you like it. 

thanks for all those encouragements and memories.

our SOSAM will become a lil dull without you , bcz u're a real active and great member !

we miss you joshua .

may your soul rest in peace and your spirit stays with us.

joshua is the indian boy , the future vet. if he's still here.

  

life brief candle

what we need to do now is appreciate everyone around you.

theresa's 18th.

HELLO PEOPLE ! I AM BACK ! =D

miss me ? yeh i knw you do .

so , as i promised , this post will be the celebration of theresa's birthday ( omg altho i was way too late to post it up , but still , i post it. )
we celebrated in bayview hotel and feringghi restaurent.

everybody says cheeez ~

we got bored by staying in d hotel , so we decided to go to the beach.

poor lil dog , got caught and guess wat ? he ( actually it's we ) spill some sands on it.  O.O

nah..not really.u see ! we love it =D it has its photoshooting session somemore..not bad.

so here are some candid photos. =)

do u knw wat is this ? =)

the three nuts ! 

the gentlemen.(prove that guys nowadays love to take pic than girls ) =p

the ladies

me n d birthday girl , siao! =D

we both look so retarded especially me.. duhh

awwwww..

we witness the beautiful yet ( touching ) sunset. too bad i dont have the picture here , it's in my mind .

so after an evening of photo shooting session , we went for dinner. some of the pic , lazy to upload all , hee.. the restaurent suck money... duhhh.. the dishes are all super small i mean extremely small ! but for those like yingqi and me who dont really eat too much like guys do , our dishes were like so big. =.=

the birthday cake. this is the FIRST tiramisu i like. bcz the alcohol taste heavier and quite concentrated , with thge coffee.. loving it.

ps : i am nt an alcoholic. lol

group photo. ( notice the shadow on our head , we hv double hair ) =D

once again , happy birthday siao ! may all the bad lucksfly away n attrack fortunes ! have a blast !

end of the post.

wait ! did i say end of the post ? oh so u guys will not believe then , thinking of where's the ' LOVE PHOTOS' ?

right ! it will be in the next next next upcoming post.

reality versus interest

after considering for a long time , i had finally decided for my future.
yes , i shall not being stubborn.
instead of doing things that i like yet family members do not support , i rather choose something that indeed suit my personality , personal skill and potential and have a great support from them altho it's not on top if my wish list.
After some pratices with friends , i had found my debate skill and interest in it.
i actually should have thanks to sze yun , modeeeeee for reminding me something:
错过是为了遇见对的..

When we let go something today, maybe something which is more suitable is waiting for us in the future.
what i have learnt is , face the reality , interest and reality cant blend together , i mean , in some cases.
and i am just right in this situation,sad.
and you ! yeah you ! dont act as you are my whoever else , because the fact is YOU'RE NOT AT ALL ! dont try to give me advices or comment abt wat i had decided abt my career in he future.
bare in mind , you're just a friend of mine , not even my boyfriend.so save you comments for youself , i dont freaking need it. =)
next year is the year , i gotta prepare myself.
i had decided a new life for myself , it will be a tough one i know , at least i can learn to be independent , as in TOTALLY independent.
sister ,  i am not naive , i gotta do it and prove it to you that i can , as in , i really can !
do you still remember what i say ?
I CAN , IF I BELIEVE I CAN.
just stand aside and watch alright ? dont care about me.let me be alive or dead on my own.
if i am successful , then be it.
if i fail , stand up high , point at me , and LAUGH !
you've only two ways to do.
i do not need supports too,indeed , i will support you in doing whatever you like,
because i love you,you're still the best sister on earth.

upcoming post :

bayview beach with lot of nice pictures.

staytune. ;)

secret

i actually did update my blog !!!
didnt u see ???
are you sure no ???
well ... you can view it if and only if you know my password for my blog. =p
*which i doubt only one person reading it *

anyway , exam is still on.
but fortunately , bio and math extension1 had over !!
and most of all , i can still do it , not too bad i guess ! wheeee ~~
left chem !!!! woooo ~~ i'm gotta get 80 and above or i will be so so so dead ! =D
i dont count on eng (listening paper) and math on thurs , coz ,i cant do anything with it..booo ~!!
good thing , i dont take phy ! hoooray !!!!! i dont have any exam after 10am on fri !!!
good luck guys for phy paper on sat !! HAHAHAHAHA..*evil laugh*

promise to update my blog after my mid term exam !!
and promise that my post will be an interesting one.

ciao ~!

just a lil not update's update

i'm going to wii the world !!!!!!

what a hustle bustle life ..

~chaos~

me love♥

it had been some times since i last updated my bloggie.*blow dust and clean spider webs*
i'm still quite busy thou .
but well..i received a msg right before i step outta my door which stated english class cancelled.
so i finally can sit down , enjoy the breath of morning fresh air , rhythm which chirping birds compose and look at the atmosphere around my house in the morning.
so then i decided to upload something to share and also to update my abandoned bloggie.
no words , picture only. =) 

3 months ago,i knew someone called khor liang sun,jared.he was suppose to meet me just once.however,things didnt go the way it should.so we met up for quite a number of times and celebrated new year eve with my L4TP friends together at butterworth.we found that we actually have quite a lot of similar characters and interests.slowly..........1/1/2010

until he went for his ns,3/1/2010, there i thought , damn this time!we go apart while our relationship just began?sadly,but it's still a fact that he must go.so be it.3 months time.our feeling towards each other didnt fade but it grows stronger and stronger,idk why.everytime he came back for a short break,we spent a quality time together cos we really cherish it.until he come back............

we almost meet everyday.college,hang out,whatsoever.f.y.i : we dont mix dating and studies together.college is the place to study not for dating.so wat happen is just mayb he sits beside me in a few classes but dont really talk.we're rasional,eh?xD

people said it would get boring to see each other everyday but i disagree.

i love you is like by my words,it's by my heart.we had experienced some conflicts,yet i'll hold you by my hand like how you do to conquer it no matter what.this is a promise. 

you always make me smile.whenever my mind is out of anything else,you'll just come across my mind.dont ask me why i love you so much,it's d same as how u said,it's a feeling.i dont know the reason that can be stated.i told you abt my history,abt my thinking while i'm in secondary school.i was not wrong,cos you really didnt get angry but you undersatnd it.i think it is a good thing afterall.good thing that i wont trust a man easily and right now the only guy i trust is you.it really brings you lot of afvantages.wooahh..

the pic i love most

remember the 'seventy' gift ? and remember the things we're gonna LOA it? yeahh..that's the things i want most.frankly speaking. so,let's live with it until god takes away the last air i breath.

you mean everything to me.