Tuesday, June 30, 2009

miss chew

i am finally calm down ( a very little bit ).

yesterday is history , tomorrow is mystery.
i hope the history could be a happy ending , but why it ended like this ????
i went to my english tuition last night .
1st of all , the light bulb had gt problem , ok , so my teacher's god sister helped to repair it.
ok , skip this part.

my teacher sat down with a very serious and weird expression.
so there she told me :"
huimei , i have something to tell u ...
today is ur last lesson already."
'why?!'
'i hv to go for operation'
'why ? for wat ?'
'gall stone , and i hv gt diabetes , super high blood pressure.
it's abt 267/300'
if u are one bio student , u knw how dangerous is tat , and anything will happen if she didnt admit to the hospital.
'w-a-t-t-h-e-e-f-f-i-n-g-h-e-l-l-?' !!

i had so many question marks in my brain ?
why ??? u r so healthy , tho u r not thin , but but , u r one healthy one !! but why r u telling me so many sickness ??? no , there's must be something wrong...
ok , so accept the fact.

she still has to go for another check up...
no , there's no more sickness ald !! yes !!!! no more...no more.......no more....................
so ??? do u knw how suffering is to control my tears ??? like for 2 hours !!

my teacher reli looks weak right at the moment , she was so tired until she felt asleep...
i dun want to wake her up , no ...
wat i can do is just......staring at her....
yes ? why ???? why is everything happen out of sudden ? like in just a moment ?!
she told me :" i didnt knw my life will come to a stop like this' ...
stop stop !!! plz dun tell me anything , i am still controlling myself...
she told me something , she repeat , repeat and repeat..
and the way u are so tired....
and i can feel a pain on my chest...

finally , it's 9.30pm , it's time...
i walked out quietly , i saw her sitting on a chair and was sleeping.
i....wat i can do is , walked back to the room and rub off my tears ..
take a very deep breath...
walked out again , with noise..so my teacher woke up.
then open the door , ' goodbye huimei , u must take good care , dun 4gt wat i said , health is ur prosperity. all the best in spm and bye bye....
i ..... i dun even dare to look back , just , raised my hand up then....*waving bye*
just right when the door 'bang' - closed...
so ..............
until the night , i cant stop thinking of it.
i actually saw her looking at me disappear from the sight at the window , just , i pretend i didnt notice that. bcz i knw u r sad too..

today , during the english lesson , i miss my teacher like a hell lot !!!
yes , i am sure nobody realized i actually had cried several times today...
i had kept myself busy just to prevent myself thinging of it .

my teacher , i rmb she said she will create a web and ask some of her students to write some article there . and it's abt to encourage those absent-minded ppl.
actually , i can see u r sad ytd , by the way u told me and by the way u repeat ur words...
you are one who always ask me to keep up my hard work to achieve my dream..
and the collection of the newspaper,whenever u saw it .. u will cut it down...

this tuition is 1 to 1 english tuition , so it's not only like the ordinary 100+ students tuition.
u will never understand my feeling.
the fear , the disappointment , the hope , helpless feeling....

i know u are one who love fabulous food.
so i knw how u feel when u cant eat food with oil , salt , sugar...
like the tasteless food , i understand.
the memories are still clear , the laughter , the complain ...........

i know you will be fine , yes , u will be fine....
i.....
i will take the video abt soemthing u knw , as i promised.
i will do well in my papers..
i , i will achieve my dream..
i will.....
i will.

'i understand.take care of yrself and ally ( cat ) and i will always remember you.'
'yes , i will always rmb u and ally too.....'

god plz bless my teacher , i pray , and this is wat i can do.
i can still hear ur voice , saying goodbye.
morning , afternoon , evening , night , midnight , my wish is still , u will recover soon and hv a good health.
='(

8 comments:

name written said...

she will be fine....

i hav to take care too... T.T

huimei said...

yes ,she will !! thx !

btw , u are ??

Anonymous said...

he is lkc lar..
who else?
O.o

name written said...

LOL...aunty....1st time c u leave comment...hahaha....

gai liao la me........now everyday is like...torturing....nid to learn how to 手放开

huimei said...

wat aunty..hahaha..
1st time ??u sure?

oh , wat's ur prob anyway ,i will lend u my ear..wahahhahaa

nyway , who r u ?

魂·失 said...

aunty = aunty tan la...old one....xD

Live Station said...

Love, enjoy, and appreciate life when you are still able to do it..

some people, in fact, quite a number of people around me have their hidden problems like serious health issues... but they look perfectly normal.

your posting reminds me of MY english teacher when i was in primary school as well..


She was very strict, and would cane us for not memorising vocab at home. I made her cry once by questioning her teachings. And of course, i got caned almost everyday because my english wasnt good at all.

I still remember myself not knowing that "Goods" means, and getting a few strokes at my palm.


two years after i graduated from primary school, she was killed in a road accident at Jelapang Toll on the highway, while on the way to attend her Master Degree graduation at UPM.


I could still remember the way she died in the Kancil that time, being hit and crushed by a bus.


I did not cry, but I was brutally shaken and realised that, life can end anytime... Accidents, unfortunate events, can happen anytime anywhere to anyone.


Kudos to my english teacher who caned me and taught me english.
I really miss those days.



God bless your English teacher, hopefully she'll be all right after undergoing operations and proper treatment.


Remember to go visit her if you could, and most importantly, make her proud by scoring 1A in 1119!

huimei said...

she had her operations d..
i think everthing will be fine..
just tat , she needs medicine to maintain her strength.
haiz , anyway , i am sorry to hear abt tat( ur eng teacher)..
rght..thx for the motivation , i willbeat 1119 !!!
thx ,song huan !!! =D



[kc]nh , i am still young..xD