reality versus interest

after considering for a long time , i had finally decided for my future.
yes , i shall not being stubborn.
instead of doing things that i like yet family members do not support , i rather choose something that indeed suit my personality , personal skill and potential and have a great support from them altho it's not on top if my wish list.
After some pratices with friends , i had found my debate skill and interest in it.
i actually should have thanks to sze yun , modeeeeee for reminding me something:
错过是为了遇见对的..

When we let go something today, maybe something which is more suitable is waiting for us in the future.
what i have learnt is , face the reality , interest and reality cant blend together , i mean , in some cases.
and i am just right in this situation,sad.
and you ! yeah you ! dont act as you are my whoever else , because the fact is YOU'RE NOT AT ALL ! dont try to give me advices or comment abt wat i had decided abt my career in he future.
bare in mind , you're just a friend of mine , not even my boyfriend.so save you comments for youself , i dont freaking need it. =)
next year is the year , i gotta prepare myself.
i had decided a new life for myself , it will be a tough one i know , at least i can learn to be independent , as in TOTALLY independent.
sister ,  i am not naive , i gotta do it and prove it to you that i can , as in , i really can !
do you still remember what i say ?
I CAN , IF I BELIEVE I CAN.
just stand aside and watch alright ? dont care about me.let me be alive or dead on my own.
if i am successful , then be it.
if i fail , stand up high , point at me , and LAUGH !
you've only two ways to do.
i do not need supports too,indeed , i will support you in doing whatever you like,
because i love you,you're still the best sister on earth.

upcoming post :

bayview beach with lot of nice pictures.

staytune. ;)

secret

i actually did update my blog !!!
didnt u see ???
are you sure no ???
well ... you can view it if and only if you know my password for my blog. =p
*which i doubt only one person reading it *

anyway , exam is still on.
but fortunately , bio and math extension1 had over !!
and most of all , i can still do it , not too bad i guess ! wheeee ~~
left chem !!!! woooo ~~ i'm gotta get 80 and above or i will be so so so dead ! =D
i dont count on eng (listening paper) and math on thurs , coz ,i cant do anything with it..booo ~!!
good thing , i dont take phy ! hoooray !!!!! i dont have any exam after 10am on fri !!!
good luck guys for phy paper on sat !! HAHAHAHAHA..*evil laugh*

promise to update my blog after my mid term exam !!
and promise that my post will be an interesting one.

ciao ~!

just a lil not update's update

i'm going to wii the world !!!!!!

what a hustle bustle life ..

~chaos~

me love♥

it had been some times since i last updated my bloggie.*blow dust and clean spider webs*
i'm still quite busy thou .
but well..i received a msg right before i step outta my door which stated english class cancelled.
so i finally can sit down , enjoy the breath of morning fresh air , rhythm which chirping birds compose and look at the atmosphere around my house in the morning.
so then i decided to upload something to share and also to update my abandoned bloggie.
no words , picture only. =) 

3 months ago,i knew someone called khor liang sun,jared.he was suppose to meet me just once.however,things didnt go the way it should.so we met up for quite a number of times and celebrated new year eve with my L4TP friends together at butterworth.we found that we actually have quite a lot of similar characters and interests.slowly..........1/1/2010

until he went for his ns,3/1/2010, there i thought , damn this time!we go apart while our relationship just began?sadly,but it's still a fact that he must go.so be it.3 months time.our feeling towards each other didnt fade but it grows stronger and stronger,idk why.everytime he came back for a short break,we spent a quality time together cos we really cherish it.until he come back............

we almost meet everyday.college,hang out,whatsoever.f.y.i : we dont mix dating and studies together.college is the place to study not for dating.so wat happen is just mayb he sits beside me in a few classes but dont really talk.we're rasional,eh?xD

people said it would get boring to see each other everyday but i disagree.

i love you is like by my words,it's by my heart.we had experienced some conflicts,yet i'll hold you by my hand like how you do to conquer it no matter what.this is a promise. 

you always make me smile.whenever my mind is out of anything else,you'll just come across my mind.dont ask me why i love you so much,it's d same as how u said,it's a feeling.i dont know the reason that can be stated.i told you abt my history,abt my thinking while i'm in secondary school.i was not wrong,cos you really didnt get angry but you undersatnd it.i think it is a good thing afterall.good thing that i wont trust a man easily and right now the only guy i trust is you.it really brings you lot of afvantages.wooahh..

the pic i love most

remember the 'seventy' gift ? and remember the things we're gonna LOA it? yeahh..that's the things i want most.frankly speaking. so,let's live with it until god takes away the last air i breath.

you mean everything to me.

effing !

wat the fuck man !
i am super pissed now !!!
i just watched a video in youtube, the title is called 活活被打死..
it's somewhere in indonesia i guess..
i dono wat's wrong with those fucking men who beat the innocent woman ..
not only beat til she is dead and also they use the brick to throw on her head , so y' know.. whole red patch on the floor..

this is the point here :
no matter wat she did , she definitely DONT deserve to be PUNISHED TIL DEAD by HUMAN-BEING! at least , if it's a yes , she must get punished under the law.
wat the fucking point is there to beat the woman til she is dead in public !??!
who are they to determine if she deserve the 'death' or not ??!
wat the fuck is wrong with them ?
i 've totally outta idea of wat the hell were they thinking !
isnt there something called  'conscience' and 'sympathy' ?!?
wat the hack !
now those who involved in the 'punishing action' , i am sure they will definitely get the karma from god.
i still believe that god has His right decision to be made.

T-juncion

eighteen, an important stage in life.
what i gotta do is to choose the pathway for the rest of my life.(mayb it's until i retire , which is for the next 30 years )..

i know what i will take next.
but deeep inside my heart , i always ask myself :
am i really happy with this choice? am i really really happy with it ? am i interested in it ? is this suitable for my characteristic ?
i can hear a weak voice saying : no.
so i will go on and ask myself again : but why am i still choosing it ?
apparently i remain silence, because i knw the answer well..as in , very very well..
no matter how much everyone of them hope me to go for this ambition , somehow.....i ask myself ....
sorrowful , isnt it ?

what my real ambition is to be a outstanding xxxxx .
but there goes the problem when i think further of my life.
there will definitely be a conflict between X and Y , which i know there will be a sacrifice of either one.to me , both of them are equally imporant !! i dont want to lose this aspect bcz of that aspect.
now , i am really standing in front of a T junction. sigh ~~

am i really going to ignore the weak voice ? or am i going to accept the way everyone in my family hope.. do i have any other choice ?
to be frank , i actually dont have a direction other than the original ambition.
sigh ~
DILEMMA!!

i am so not happy when i think abt this .

oh god !! help me..

i found you

that darlie is right.
this is the first exactly right statement i have ever heard..(he's a perfect guy)
no matter how hard i find a reason to deny , i failed.
i was really impressed , really really did.
the word which start from 'P' had nvr been so true , it's so solid and the facts are all shown.
oh my goodnesss..
should i say :
1. thanks god !
2. thanks LOA !
????
i would prefer the latter one, cause other than the basic works i have to do , LOA rules my life and i am loving it =D
so, thanks LOA !! you're my god of law. thank you.
no matter how many appreciate i say , it will never reached the level i want to express.
never mind. as long as i know how much is it will do.
ps: in case you guys start questioning what's LOA .
a law that make me a person it is , i would seriously tell.

i found you.
i love you , my Frank/William Shakespeare.
*inside joke*

quote " you may have the whole world as long as you have michael losier's belief " unquote.

trust me!

as what we used to say , i want to say this one more time.

no matter what , we'll be each other's until the last breath.