i was acting only

i saw xx today...
and..i feel so bad actually...
but..i was acting like i was happy as usual and like nothing happen..i smiled i laughed i joked v my friends..
but actually..who knows wat the hell was i thinking about..nobody..yeah..nobody...
i act just because i dunwan to let xx feel like was did something bad...but mayb xx wont feel so la..hehe..
and today rain heavily..err
i feeled soooo cold this cold day ..or the rain cant stop...+ i was already sick .. haizx..
maybe the rain may wash away the memories..wash away wat i should forget...
yeah..nobody will noe if i cry in the rain..so let's cry... =.="

i do always like this :
"i like crying in the rain beacause nobody knows i am crying"

cant sleep

now is 0221 ...midnight..
i cant sleep at all..and i am energetic..
so..i am studying sej and listening to music..and now i take a rest..lolx..
besides study sej , my brain keep thinking of wat had happened just now..
and...the song "盘里的洋葱像我。。。如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心，你会发现，你会讶异，你是我最讶异最深处的秘密。。。。只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意。。”
okay..it's disgusting thou'...okay....okay....sorry..
do i did anything wrong ?? yeah !! maybe..i am wrong bcoz i...*disgusting*...okay...i...
i am wrong...i am wrong..i am wrong !!
so...don worries..i wont let myself wrong anymore...
i mean...i will try to...i will try my best....

0009

28/2/2008 - 0009 / 12.09am..
yeah...this is the date and the time..
finally...i give up on xxx...
i feel sooo sad !! soooooo...but...i don cry...
no..i cry...-ing- ...
2 years...i lost nothing...
but i lost my feeling...
okay...mayb it's good...
we shouldnt start anything..ANY...
and it's okay...
it's the time to give up too...
give up is the only way...
it's good for u and me..
so...wish u good luck in everything..
everyday..
good luck...
take care....

happy bday to me..

happy bday !!
i should be happy today .. and yeah .. i am happy but i am a lil bit not happy too.. X(
thx for those who wish me happy bday and the present !!!!
pm : i love ur present vy much...it cheers me up .. because it's reli ada nilai..haha...
and okay...i am a lil bit disappointed to my friends i join everyday..i mean EVERYDAY !!
not because of wat...just because of their attitude !! wat the hell r u guys trying to do or tell ???
u noe , i am reli disappointed although i am still laughing and smiling as usual..just i dunwan to show out my feeling only since today is my bday .. lolx..i dun understand y u 5 always do that kinda stuff !!!!!! FREAK OFF !!! i hate it !!!

after pj , i do entertain my classmates , around 15++ classmates i think...those who stay at the stairs and looking me 'coh siao coh ten' ... okay...i was being like a clown..lolx...i walk the stairs like i am already cacat !!! hahah !! ended up...they laugh like hell !!!!!! happy , guys ?? haha..
and 1 more...i entertained them when english period...thw whole class except tze teng because....(ask the student in my class) .. we r soooo crazy...oh no..it's me ..i am so crazy...haha ...*think back and laugh like hell* ... XD XD XD

lastly...
i am sick .. i hate flu !!! my nose is soooo itchy !!! arghh !!!!

embarassing .. happy .. >.< ^.^

doing add math and maths just now..now stop dee , too pening dgn add math !! so i need a rest..LOL !!
haiz...add math and math r WAY DIFFERENT !!!
maths is soooooooo easy but add math..haiz.....
tuition teacher havent teacher until chap 3 , so i dono how to do...blame the school teacher..dono wat the hell is she talking abt also !!! i miss miss chuah hoe lean !!! she is a good teacher okay ?? u guys reli dono to appreciate huh ?? she is good in teaching although her lesson is a lil bit bored..but i never feel bored also ... *blame the school* ...always chg teacher..fuck off !

and yeah...i was so so so sleepy today..
ytd i slept at abt 2am..and woke up at abt 7am..stupid house practice...
and after that , EST , sivik ... STUPID SIVIK !!! how come my year is soooooo damn unlucky ???
tell u guys tat already graduated , we hv to study sivik and mayb sivik is included in SPM!!!
how lucky r u guys ?!?!??!?!! wat a FAIR !!!!!! *grrr*
and after school..went to tuition just now...add math tuition tat i always satisfied with the method of the teacher teaches...*applause*

okay..plan to sleep already but NO !!!
12am ...is my bday dee..hhahaa...my friends asked me to wait..
okay....although i am sleepy , but it's ok la...once in year 2008...
and...thx 1st ya !!! love u guys !!! muackx...

stupid msn and skype

arghhh..
i am so angry right now !!!
wat the hell is the msn being ???
i cant sign in mine , it appears something like troubleshoot...shoot ur head !!!
okay..fine..i sign in my skype then...
omg !! i 4gt my password !!! i gonna go mad !!!
friendster...replied all testi dee...*bored*
and now...blogging..luckily blogspot still works..*thumb up*

wat a brave

23/2/2008 , 2222....
i will never forget today and the time...
just now i did something ...errr.....i feel shock and surprising right now...
about wat i did...i noe it myself and of coz my best friend that nvr tell others my secret(sheh nee/nee nee)*hug* ...
actually , she told me not to do so , but no !!! i hv to do !!! i just dunwan to wasting everybody's time....okay..then i did it...
after that..i told nee , she is like ' OMG ! ' ..lolx...
after some conversation with her....
she said :" anyway , i will support u.."
haha...it's so touching man ! * cry* ..
and she said....no matter what is my decision , she will still support me...and always wish me good luck....coz...we r best friend wert !!!
nee !! as i always say , wish u n wei lun forever love ..hahah !!!
and so...what can i do is ...wait la...wait for certain days...wish myself good luck too ..muackx..
so ... THIS IS BEST FRIEND !!

to xxx :
when someone trust u ... she will tell u her secret...
PLEASE !!! do u needa tell ur friend's secret to the others whitout her permission ??
do u noe ?? this is call BETRAYAL !!
think before u say , use ur brain to think...do u hv brain ?? okay..mayb u dun hv...
i told u and sheh nee my stuffs...i wonder how others noe my stuffs..and until that day only i noe ...
just because of u !! FUCK OFF !!!!!!
thx for let me to learn a lesson...thx...
anyway , i wont blame u although i scolded u here...hahaha...
we r still friend..
and mayb u dono i am talking abt u also...
bcz ... just same as me..someone betray u..LOL !!
this world is full of betrayal ..hahah !!!!

tiring f4 life ..

f4... it's important yet it's tiring...
f4.. is not honey moon year !!! DEFINITELY !!
f4.. we hv to study hard for those new subjects , and extra difficult BM !! *yoh!*
f4... a 'golden year' for us to build up our responsibility .. we hv to organize everything ..
f4.. it's totally different from f3...
f4... afternoon class .. it's HOT AND SLEEPY !!
f4... is bad ...the PJ is seperated and somemore different day...*embarrasing*
f4.. is reli busy...busy for meeting busy for study busy for society busy for tuition...>.<
f4... is reli a EXTRAORDINARY YEAR !!!!!

the performance

i had a piano performence today...
1st of all , i was like...vyvy panic...vyvy nervous...
okay..when i started to play , i was still quite nervous..but after that...no such crazy feeling dee..
and i played the pieces just as usual..enjoying it...and then...finish !!!!
and then my teacher said i am the best among the previous performer ...
hahah !!! i was so so so happy !!!
but today...i was quite sad..bcz i missed my chem tuition..i missed 2 times continuosly la !!!
omg !! scare i cant catch up !!!uhh ..
but luckily i still went to bio class..i was a bit late d..but nvm la..heeee...
after tat , my sis n i went to qb...we went to shopping and eat..
i ate at old town white coffee....it's nt bad bt nt tat vyvy nice la !!
actually i planned to eat at fish market 1....but nvm la..since...we walked there n see the menu..it's ntg so funny la...jz tat we both wanna go to old town n hv a look 1st..afda tat i said i wanna eat at fish market but my sis said dunwan dee la , jz nw the guy stand beside us stood there d...so we dunwanna do such 'lak seh' stuff...like come n go n come..LOLX !!!
and after tat , we came bck to home n watched 'chao ji xing guang da dao' ...
uhh !! PAN WANG ZI (PAN YU WEN) sing soooooooooooo well !! i'm loving it...lolx..
but 'you jia' ..aiya...always get highest marks 1..no doubt...he reli sing vy well la...highest marks is for sure ...and then...aska(yang zong wei) come bck too...and..i was like...cried when he apologise and said those penghargaan and blablabla...arghhh...
agfda tat , we ate peach ....the peach in the big bowl is sooooooo adorable man !!!! so cute la !!!!hahaha....
then , we discussed bout the hp...i gonna buy a hp soon ...w660i ...is it nice ?? i wan the red 1 !! the limited 1 ..haha...it's vy special la..haha..
and okay...now i am like...i wanna sleep d..but later i still wana study bc ..ming ju , fan yi..
exam is coming soon...

~good luck

tired~~

today morning , i woke up at abt 7am..and went to sch for the tkd lesson...until 11am..and..after lunch , bath and all , i went to find my sis's client with her...
okay...her client is deaf 1...okay...i should learn to appreciate myself...i appreciate i can talk like hell , i appreciate i can listen to the lovely music which i am in love with it..LOL...
after that , i went to tennis selection...uhh..muscle pain dee...and unfortunately , i injured my finger ..wat the hell !!!!!!!
tmr going to hv the piano performance .... uhh !!!! bless me then....and i practise piano like hell now..but now so sien , come to blog..haha...tmr hv to attend tkd training too , competition is coming soon..uhh !!! and piano exam is comeing soon too !! AND !!! f4 1st test ...uhh !!!
so...piano exam and tkd competition and sch test AND I AM GOING TO DIE!!!!
wat a WONDERFUL LIFE i have..i hate it !!!!
uhh !!! i dunwan to hv any exam !!! hate it !! faster graduate !!! faster get degree or diploma , and stop it !!! even i love piano , but i reli hate examination !!!!
okay...my life is full of hate ..LOL !! but how ?? i hv to LOVE it too...
i hv to face it too ...
i am really tired ... physical + mental tired..lolx...
i am dead ~~~
*EXHAUSTED*

CRAZY DOG !!

5 minutes ago...
i went to feed my doggies...there r 3 dogs...
and one of them is a CRAZY DOG , it bite me for 3 times !!!! and i nvr like it..haha...
but bcz of it is a animal , it is still a dog of mine..and i hv to gv it food too...
okay...i feed them all...after that i touched them as usual...
and OMG !! the crazy eldest 1 , gonna bite my hand and even my face coz i was near to it...
but luckily my reaction was fast enuf ..if nt ....
my hand/face will hv a scar like those scars on my hand...
such a CRAZY DOG i ever see !!!
dog bites its owner by no reason...i didnt ever bit it or torture it...
uhh !! hv to ask my parents to throw away dee !!!!!
*shock* ...

u , @#$ !!

2 days ago..............
we had a meeting , discuss abt the duty when the pegawai from pahang to visit my school library ..
okay....1st of all...XX act like she is whoever...she said from the beginning to the end..of coz we still said something...after that , she went to tell f5 one tat we already arranged every thing for tmr...everything will be okay....okay.......
yesterday..........
we suppose to reach at 10++ , i reached...and 2 more LG too...
but where is the other 14 ?!?!??! and where is the one who LOVE to talk a lot ?!?!!
10.55am...f5 AJK reached , they gt shocked ... there r oni 3 f4 LG..
okay...i was ready to get scold already (as i noe)...
"not already arranged ??? how come left 3 here.......blablablablaa............."
"yes , WE arranged , all of them supposed to reach already , but some of them went for their club , and the others , i dono"
uhhh !!!!.....
excuse me ?? u r the one who talked a lot !! order the most !! where were you ytd ??? where were you when they scolded ???
after tat,XX reached...
"anything happen?how?"
"the pegawai havent reach ..but !! get scolded by f5..."
"uhh..wat a pity"
WAT ?!?!?! WAT A PITY !!!!!??!??
everything u said , u promised , do u do it as u promised ???
am i the one who must always help u 'chap sang' ??? okay...i will , as long as we should maintain the reputation of our library , reputation of f4 LG...
okay....think i hv to learn to 4give those kinda ppl..
if nt , i will get heart attack...*calm down*

i forget..arghhh

I suppose to go my friend's house and do PJ project , but i 4gt !! omg !!
they already reached there at 1am..now...2.33,i havent reach , havent go..
nobody here...wait for my sis coming back now , i am so panic , but i now try to calm down..just like now..i do blog..swt...
arghhhh !! when is she coming back ?? i reli gonna go mad dee !!
shit ! jz nw my mum still at home , now dono where is she dee...mayb went out dee...argghh !!
i just cant imaginie if they finish the project when i reach there .. *panic*
okay..she havent come back...my friend stays at lip sin ..wat a far !!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz..i am reli 'loh mo' u noe ???
cham liao !!! mau pengsan liao !!!