miss chew

i am finally calm down ( a very little bit ).

yesterday is history , tomorrow is mystery.
i hope the history could be a happy ending , but why it ended like this ????
i went to my english tuition last night .
1st of all , the light bulb had gt problem , ok , so my teacher's god sister helped to repair it.
ok , skip this part.

my teacher sat down with a very serious and weird expression.
so there she told me :"
huimei , i have something to tell u ...
today is ur last lesson already."
'why?!'
'i hv to go for operation'
'why ? for wat ?'
'gall stone , and i hv gt diabetes , super high blood pressure.
it's abt 267/300'
if u are one bio student , u knw how dangerous is tat , and anything will happen if she didnt admit to the hospital.
'w-a-t-t-h-e-e-f-f-i-n-g-h-e-l-l-?' !!

i had so many question marks in my brain ?
why ??? u r so healthy , tho u r not thin , but but , u r one healthy one !! but why r u telling me so many sickness ??? no , there's must be something wrong...
ok , so accept the fact.

she still has to go for another check up...
no , there's no more sickness ald !! yes !!!! no more...no more.......no more....................
so ??? do u knw how suffering is to control my tears ??? like for 2 hours !!

my teacher reli looks weak right at the moment , she was so tired until she felt asleep...
i dun want to wake her up , no ...
wat i can do is just......staring at her....
yes ? why ???? why is everything happen out of sudden ? like in just a moment ?!
she told me :" i didnt knw my life will come to a stop like this' ...
stop stop !!! plz dun tell me anything , i am still controlling myself...
she told me something , she repeat , repeat and repeat..
and the way u are so tired....
and i can feel a pain on my chest...

finally , it's 9.30pm , it's time...
i walked out quietly , i saw her sitting on a chair and was sleeping.
i....wat i can do is , walked back to the room and rub off my tears ..
take a very deep breath...
walked out again , with noise..so my teacher woke up.
then open the door , ' goodbye huimei , u must take good care , dun 4gt wat i said , health is ur prosperity. all the best in spm and bye bye....
i ..... i dun even dare to look back , just , raised my hand up then....*waving bye*
just right when the door 'bang' - closed...
so ..............
until the night , i cant stop thinking of it.
i actually saw her looking at me disappear from the sight at the window , just , i pretend i didnt notice that. bcz i knw u r sad too..

today , during the english lesson , i miss my teacher like a hell lot !!!
yes , i am sure nobody realized i actually had cried several times today...
i had kept myself busy just to prevent myself thinging of it .

my teacher , i rmb she said she will create a web and ask some of her students to write some article there . and it's abt to encourage those absent-minded ppl.
actually , i can see u r sad ytd , by the way u told me and by the way u repeat ur words...
you are one who always ask me to keep up my hard work to achieve my dream..
and the collection of the newspaper,whenever u saw it .. u will cut it down...

this tuition is 1 to 1 english tuition , so it's not only like the ordinary 100+ students tuition.
u will never understand my feeling.
the fear , the disappointment , the hope , helpless feeling....

i know u are one who love fabulous food.
so i knw how u feel when u cant eat food with oil , salt , sugar...
like the tasteless food , i understand.
the memories are still clear , the laughter , the complain ...........

i know you will be fine , yes , u will be fine....
i.....
i will take the video abt soemthing u knw , as i promised.
i will do well in my papers..
i , i will achieve my dream..
i will.....
i will.

'i understand.take care of yrself and ally ( cat ) and i will always remember you.'
'yes , i will always rmb u and ally too.....'

god plz bless my teacher , i pray , and this is wat i can do.

i can still hear ur voice , saying goodbye.

morning , afternoon , evening , night , midnight , my wish is still , u will recover soon and hv a good health.

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