becos i'm tan.hui.mei.

why grey ? because it's as dull as grey

2010-11-08T10:47:00.000+08:00

every morning every night,

when my eyes are still blinking and looking,

waiting,

but no,

i dont get it any longer.

disappointment.

if you ask me will i regret if i'd nvr wake up again

i say no,

everything i do ,

i did it with my best.

so if tmr nvr came again ,

imma nvr regret for myself.

i did , i thought , i tried , i felt.

but oh , i cant feel the warmest heartbeat.

it was like that , it is like this.

take it and do it the best or leave it.

to do or not to do , imma gonna put it a smile.

becos,

i'm tan.hui.mei.

and nobody could ever replace this.

it's all about nature

2010-11-06T11:32:00.000+08:00

guys ,do you know about the mechanism of immunity ? let me explain.

antibody, the Helper T-cell in your immune system will be triggered if it detects antigens.
it'll then produce interleukin , this chemical triggers the killer T-cell and plama cell from B cell.
The Killer T-cell will then produce cytotoxin to kill the pathogen which some may attach on the surface of macrophage on the MHCII.
Antigen is destroyed , B cell then produce memory cells for the next invade of the same pathogen.
So , you see ? human's immune system is awesome. It make you immune to it. and eventually it has no effect when the pathogen invade ur body again.

So , be optimist !
nothing is gonna bring you down ( unless you've poor immune system LOL )

i learn and i'm perfect and yes! no one of you should oppose this statement.
maybe this is it :
perfect makes me bend more and more.
=)

have a nice day !

when you want to do something ,

do it at the best.

ohhhh wait ? isnt bio paper over? hahahahahahahahaha !! so be it !

random post of excitement

2010-11-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey hey hey !
my freedom is waving to me and i am seeing it so clearly now !!
2 more hours and i am freee !
why 2 hours ? because i will probably finish studying everything by 12am and sleep , so .
dont count the sleeping hours, quarantine time is also excluded , then exam , of course it's not included too !
after that ? ohhhh 12.30pm tmr !!!! i'm totally truly deeeply madly happily nutly freakly crazily freee..
hey do u see the words ? I MEAN...
FREE !!!
okay i shall stop typing now so tat i can fully utilised the 2 hours remained.
byeeeee ~

wheeeee

2010-11-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

and so ! i left one day of examination !
hey people !
bloooody ONE !

HAPPY ? SCARY ? I SUPPOSE BOTH !

first of all , i cant wait to flung all my stackssss of books tonnes of notes and so and so and so !!! =D

lots of happiness gushing from my little excited heart !
ohh what about scary ? yeahhh scary !
because one year is over just like that , it indicates.........
okay , i suppose to stop saying that , be happy ! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~!

ps : i like this bottle quite a lot , perhaps it was the childhood memories that attracted me .

someday i'll wish upon a star,

and wake up where the stars are far behind me,
where trouble metls like lemon drops,

away above the chimney tops,

that's where you'll find me!

HEY PEEPS ! LET'S GO BIKINI PARTAAAAYYY !!
(imagine readers here have their jaw drops and look at me with their queer face.)
oooopppsss.. i forget this is not a right country , at least i dont wish to put myself on a risk for a criminal crime. and ohh ! i dont have a crystal blue sea and white soft sands with hermit crabs peeping my toes from its hole. =p

hmmmm..this place had been my top list for some places of honeymoon,always will be =)
( i suppose only one person knows what is the exact place of the piacture above. geeeeez )

LET'S GO MOVIE AND CHILIS !
ohh yeshh ! this is practical now . how much i miss burgers in chilis ! mmmmm.... =d

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biology time , byes ~
GOOD LUCK FOR THE LAST TIME , HSC-IANS ! LET'S DO IT !

found some nice pictures in my camera ,

so i suppose i will have at least 2 posts queueing up here.

dreams

2010-10-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

some random and (boring/funny/lame/weird) post to share.
ps : i'm not gonna post any celebration event or any picture posts due to the lack of time ( final exam is on fri ) SCREAM WITH PRESSURE *
however , i still need to take some times to relax and come to blog. x) .
whisper : i am still tv series ! O.O KILL ME PLEASE*
just to record down some weird dreams i dreamt these weeks, kinda funny thou.

1. i dreamt of myself sitting for the HSC final exam. the students were all my high school school mates.the teacher in charge is my primary school teacher named as APPLE PIE or RABBIT BIN. shit ! we hate her ! and the exam hall is somewhere like a concert hall ,very nice.. uhhh !! now i rmb ! it's MYOB concert hall ! qi , the hall appeared in my dream LOL !!! duhh !! and you knw what ? i forgot to bring any stationery to exam and i'm a bit late !! so i just simply took others stationery where they put outsite the hall , and one of the stat. i took is FELICIA LIM's. what a 4 in 1 weird dream !from primary to pre-u. damn ! ps : i'm under pressure i suppose.

2.at the beginning of the dream , i'm in a toilet , the toilet is a weird toilet , which you can pass throught it to another room of toilet , which mean it has no privacy tho it has door which can lock as usual. the worst part is , when i stood up and look at the other toilet ( which has nobody , luckily ) i saw a GOD DAMN FROG ! it saw me and it said : YES MADAM !" then immediately right after the 'yes madam' , it jumps to my toilet ! omg !!! so i sneak to another toilet and IT CHASED ME !!! i ran to the living hall , who knows its speed is like rocket !!! goodness know ! you know what ? it has very sharp teeth and it wanted to bite me ! and when i'm hiding in somewhere else.........
i'm awake because some stupid ppl call me on my phone. but thanks to her or i've to stay in the nightmare ! hahahaha..

3.there's a heavy rain and it flood all way from the jelutong highway to dono-wat-named-highway which we used to go to qb. you know wat ? i dreamt myself parked my car at INTI , it's late night , i realized it and i've to go back to take my car.so i CYCLE to INTI! weird part is , when i was cycling , it's day time !? hahahaha.. it was still a heavy rain , and flood , so i'm all wet yet still hv to cycle ! and i met HERRICK RIDING MOTORCYCLE ! hahahahaha !! i kept cycling the wrong road.damn...to my surprise , i cycle faster than vehicles which drive at the right lane ! LOL !!!!
ps: i wonder what bicycle is that. but somehow it looked very old and kolot in the dream.

4. i dreamt myself sitting for exam again. 3 times in total.

the end.
shit..i have to go study again. bye ~

2010-10-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

damn it !

imma gonna kill !

so frustrated !!

good bye my INTI friends

2010-10-08T18:01:00.001+08:00

and so , i'm back from INTI college , for the last time.
i feel reluctant i feel sad ,i'm down but wat to do ? this is life.
i'm about to go to another chapter of life again thou this is a really short one yet a nice one.
dont feel like talking too much today , i just want to observe everyone clearly and make them into a print in my journey.
before i came back , i went into the last place , the only one place i want to enter so much >>> miss leela's office. so , opened the door , entered.
telling her something , some last words i guess. she too , gives me some encouragements some advices and some good luck says stuff..feeling very nervous , not because im talking with her but because i'm controling some you-know-what-glands. but well , i did it well . ( whisper : just not after i get into my car )
i rmb i once went into her office before , and tat's the epic one , not to mention of course , a private stuff.
today was the last day i go into class,
today was the last day i listen to the lecturers teaching,
today was the last day i can laugh at some funny students,
today was the last day i can sit with a few of my friends in my good friend list and girls talk,complain,this and that,
today was the last day i come to class with my dearest friends and beloved,
today was the last day we keep poking me and draw on my hand and 'bully' me,
today was the last day we can sit together and discussing about questions,
today ...
was really the last day we can ever be classmate, 5++6 months , very short yet a lot of sweet memories , how much i want to be classmate with you again but i just freaking cant.shit !
not to mention the feeling of how much i dunwan to leave the pre-u life , because everyone should know how sorrowful it is.
life goes on,
but , my toughness still does not move well.
GOOD LUCK CLASSMATES , MATES , FRIENDS , GOOD FRIENDS , BESTIES.

leela's celebration and some pictures with classmate will be posted when i'm free.

ps: final external exam is just around the corner ,6 days to go.

i'm actually , a weak person.

we love you

2010-09-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

year comes year ends
time flies like an airplane;
if you dont enjoy it, you'll end up suffer in agony and dismay
if you do,you will not realize times sneak away.

it was a touching memories recorded in my pre-u chapter.
in this day, 30 sept, a strict yet humour legend was borned.
yes, she's the legend among all the teachers and lecturers, i couldn't deny she is a very successful lecturer.
she's relatively strict, she scolds people badly and horribly ,
she tease people with a very irony way with something like :
" you know what is gong kia ? gong kia is you ! "
" whoever add me in facebook before this course ends is a moron , they don't have any thinking skill , thinking skill is a total zero, because they let me check out what they do and say in in fb."
" this simple chemistry question can be answered by a baby or a kindergarten kids. "
however , she add some jokes sometimes :
" the pollution causes the BAFFALOS dont have fun times with COWS anymore" ( okay, are cows and baffalos friends ever since ? LOL !!! )
" the examinor is a fierce man , OLDER THAN ME , HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE , ANGRY ... " ( well , these facts dont make a man being impatient and it's not actually a fact but a says from her LOL )
her jokes arent just an oral jokes , she adds some facial expression if it's available from the jokes, something like the :
- b'nnnggg face ( b'nggg = blur , according to her )
- shouts when her favourite tv shows end at the climax
- cute fake smile yet a very irony one
- suffocate face when suffering from alkalosis.
no doubt, everyone is very afraid of her , even english school or malay schools guys.
she is so , yes , but everyone respect her , a lot a lot !
she is so , yes , but everyone will still love her even after she scolds us badly.
but , we know , we know she's scolding us with reason and for our goodness sake.
so no matter how bad she scolds us , right after class dismiss , we'll still respect her and love her.
now, it left only one bloody week before our final study break and graduate from pre-u.
for me , i have a sudden realize that time just flies away without me realizing it.
i'm sad ,
i'm not willing to graduate away from her class,
and i....
i started missing her already...

year comes year ends,
time,
flies like an airplane.
happy birthday, miss leela ,
i wish you all the best, stay healthy , stay happy, stay strict, stay humour,
be the best lecturer especially the chem lecturer.
we love you.

up coming post : miss leela's bday celebration.

i'm gonna cherish the last week nx week.

til then, tears drop dramatically now.

bcos, i love you, miss leela.

i am.

2010-09-22T23:30:00.001+08:00

fear is overwhelming

helpless

afraid

sad.

but all of sudden

you're here.

you swap all my fear away

i know,

i'm a grown up lady.

that i've someone who love me

and be by my side when i need you.

it's a touched

that i couldnt express

of the sudden 180 degree turning of my mood.
your hug
is always the best and warmest cure

ILY.

am i a sadist ?

only those who understand me well know.

shit.

2010-09-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

come ! let me tell you a story of our great government.
just sit down , relax and listen to me. =)
I am legally 18 months ago yet i havent change my Identical card.
one fine day( wth ),i went to register for my passport due to the needs. here the story starts......

i reached the passport department (PD) early in the morning but the officer told me that i have to renew my IC to the 18 years old one.. oh crap. wat the hell , which means i hv to go to the IC department (ICD) located at ansun road to renew my IC.
that man told me that i need to get THE PIECE OF PAPER for my new IC as i cant get my IC so fast..
well , i rushed to ICD. i took the number and waited.
" sorry mr and mrs , due to the down line of our system , the registration of the new IC is now unavailable , please wait for a while to let our system get back to its function"
ughhh ! holly ~! okay..wait..wait..wait....
but wat the fuck !! we waited from 8 something til 10 something , start feeling irritating. so went out for lunch and went to some colleges to ask for some stuff..
so we expect it to be okay after we went back , but no !!
waited for another while , then mum decided to send me to college for class and go to sungai ara there to do after my class.
after my class , it was 4pm.
straight away went to sg ara there to do those shit , finally.i get the PIECE OF PAPER.

in the next day , i woke up at 6 something to queue up so that i can settle those stuff b4 my 8am class started.
"SORRY MISS, YOU HAVE TO GET THE IC SEMENTARA ( IC temporary ) ONLY YOU CAN DO YOUR PASSPORT."
"FUCK!? AINT YOU PEOPLE TOLD ME TO GET THIS PIECE OF PAPER , WHAT'S NOW?"
"THIS IS NOT THE IC TEMPORARY, THIS IS THE RECEIPT"
"FUCK YOU MAN, YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT YOU WANT IC SEMENTARA , ONLY A PIECE OF SHIT PAPER !"
anger fill me , but shit ! i still have to go to ICD anyway.
so went to ansun road there to get that shit.
"SORRY MISS , YOU REGISTER IT AT SG ARA THERE , YOU CAN ONLY TAKE YOUR IC SEM. THERE NOT HERE"
"WHAT !? YOUR SYSTEM DOWN LINE AND THE WHOLE PENANG DOWN LINE TOGETHER , WHY CANT I JUST GET IT HERE ? DONT YOU TELL ME ITS DIFFERENT !"
" SORRY, BUT YOU CAN ONLY TAKE IT THERE , THIS IS THE PROCEDURE"
"FUCK PROCEDURE"
okay !!!! what the hell twice ! so we headed to sg ara again and get it.
then travel back to PD to do my passport.
it was kinda late , like 9 something or 10. now my number is 100+ away which means i hv to wait 100+ more ppl to go.
so we waited from the morning til the afternoon, around 2pm+
did it , but still have to come back 2 hours later to get the passport.
2 hours later , i finally get it.
ohh...
seeee??
WHAT A GREAT GOVERNMENT WITH GREAT SYSTEM OF MALAYSIA.
i guess this is how they work..
uhhh ~! two days wasted for all these shits..issssshhhhh....

i do.

2010-09-13T11:42:00.001+08:00

Doubt that the stars are fire,
doubt that the sun does move,
doubt truth to be a liar,
but never doubt I love.

becos i'm tan hui mei.

IUY

2010-09-09T09:38:00.000+08:00

just like a girl who hit by a vehicle,

its a great accident.

and she ?

she had lost her memories,

gradually being another person.

until someday,

accident hit her and she woke up.

she realized how much things have changed.

but sorry,

she cant leave what she has now.

but something good is that she remember everything back.

she compares the two lives,

the two personalities,

the two conditions.

yikeesss...

love,

is an accident.

the way i love you.

2010-09-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

i could make you happy make your dream comes true,

nothing that i wouldnt do.

go to the ends of the earth for you,

to make you feel my love.

简单幸福

2010-08-27T11:16:00.002+08:00

忽然间，

不想长大，

不想上大学。

上了大学，

我，

会。很。孤。独。

你，不要离开我好吗？

我不舍得。。

我想，我会以泪洗脸吧!

我要简单幸福。。。

i'm 25 years old.

2010-08-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

we have had this opera favourite in august, organized by fingerprints choir.

sponsered by hair impression and clover make up academy.

ps : well this saloon really impressed me by making me older by 10 years.. omg... =(

but i guess it was alright, because opera is abt old british men and women.

actually this post suppose to be published months ago, unfortunately, i had my trial. so i didnt.

now let the pic talk,imma lazy to type. X)

this was the song with king kong.

i was acting her maid. successful right ? xD

omg ! su lynn's hair style is like mr mcd, the red hair man. =D

next, being a couple and dating at the park.

grand finale. gypsy ! loving it !

actually there were around 20 songs. i was just involve in a few. so that was all.

group photo! *wink*

two way traffic(language)

2010-08-23T12:25:00.001+08:00

好山良许

运青缘愿

相水千成

随秀里真

美梅蕙陈

景吐吉酒

天艳祥香

just like this materpiece,

it indicates the starting point of our journey,

and its not gonna be an expire day on anyday else.

eenie meenie mani mu.

2010-08-17T11:05:00.000+08:00

T.R.I.A.L
okay.. it's really driving me crazzzzzeeeehh !!

but alright, i'm kinda satisfied with my english and math extension paper X)

tho i dont expect much on extension. heeee

O.M.G

why am i here writting crap ?

chem tmr, thurs bio, fri math.

and i'm freeeeeeeeeee ~!

this coming inter-sem. break will be so interesting !

toodles ~

oh, i'm gonna blog abt my old english woman(aunty) style after trial.

stay tune.

♥

2010-07-15T23:01:00.001+08:00

我想独自到遥远的地方，
沿着沙滩上
海浪留下的
痕迹，
平行地跟着线条走；
听着海浪拍打海岸的声音；
也留下了
足下的
痕迹。

一个人躺着柔软的沙滩，
望着天上无数个星星
一闪一闪，
仿佛在催眠我入睡
然，
却不忘了带着我所有的回忆
一闪一闪的在脑海闪过。

喧嚣的城市里，我依然找不到那股宁静。
对不起，我给不了你最好的东西
但我却能给你
最
好
的
回
忆
。

回忆，还不会是历史，

因为，还未完待续。

toodles

2010-07-12T09:31:00.001+08:00

people who know huimei say :
huimei's nuts !
she's crazzziiee and fun !
and oh ! she's so sampat !
a 24 hours happy one.

wah..i was sooo ( you know , i know ) last time , no wonder i was sooo (you know , i know ) xD

people who understand huimei say :

i wish you've a world like what you've apparently.

cheers .

she's yet not a happy one inside.

she's actually not as tough as we see.

dont think too much , put all the things away and relax.

oh these two crazy pic was taken after my tennis game , while my whole head is still wet . yeah , am sure.

ps : i found out some of the old pictures and the two below are so funny !! =D

random.

2010-07-07T12:31:00.001+08:00

I read a book , its in madarin and the title is ‘说话的艺术' ( the art of talking )
no wait , i read it since a long long long time ago , and i'd forgotten when.
it's all about the technique of talking.
you know what , this is what i believe :
If you've a good talking skill , you're on your half way to success.
If you've a suck talking skill , you're on your half way to failure.
and yeah ! this is true ..
of all these years , i still cant prove the one of my principle (stated above) wrong.

however , when you meet someone like a babarian or anything , ignore them then.
you dont need to waste your time and saliva to talk with someone like that.
ps : but i bet you dont use the art of talking EVERYTIME , you still have to spare some of those kidding and fun talk for you and friends.

somehow , i am thinking of borrowing you this book.

S.O.S !

2010-07-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

i had a fun and interesting one week holiday , the one week simply passed so fast..
OH WAIT !!
did i just mention holiday is going to an end in another 2 days time ?
OH NO !!!!
i left english presentation , i left tonnes of chemistry homework , i left my math and math extension revision , i left my chemistry revision and i left that idiot sotong's moral assignment !!!!!
sigh ~~~

i'm currently searching for a good movie and good song for my english presentation .
the content of it need to be a strong plot and has got a strong sense of belonging..
people , do u have any ideas ? can you suggest me ?
i'm turning over and over my playlist , yet i cant find any..
i'm so dead !!!!!
i need a good suggestion , anyone PLEASE ?!?!

changes

2010-06-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

do u ever heard of ' changes have got their pusposes , to be a better one or the worse one then ?'
what i heard is of the better one.
and do u ever heard of 'when it is the end , it's a good one , if it's not a good one , it's not the end yet' ?
so , from the mathematical induction , i can conclude it as :
changes have got their purposes , it will be the best one in the end.

if you believe in God , u know God will arrange everything for you , and it has its purpose.
To me , i am a free thinker , the God i always mention is not specific , i believe in any God , Buddha , Jesus , Hindu , Muslim , anything as long as they teach the right thing but not something like teach u to do stupid stuff and commit suicide for God. ish..
but what i belive the most is 'fate' , my 'The Secret' and also 'my own believe and thought'.
alright , back to the topic.

let's give an example :

you want a Pineapple .
To some of the people , Pineapple is disgusting , its a nightmare but to some people , Pineapple is simply awesome.
so , your mum suggest you to take Apple.
you dont like it , not as much as Pineapple , but it's also good for health.
Yet , u insist to take Pineapple .
fine , some of the people has got a bad feeling when u eat Pineapple , and to you , Pineapple wont make you very healthy , and u cant go to somewhere quickly and make you feel sick.

Finally , you decide to take Apple , everywhere has it.

everyone around you feel happy because majority likes Apple, and you wont feel reluctant to eat it too.
with that , the ppl around you offer you to eat a better Apple , mayb an Apple from california or wherever.
besides , they feel happy and offer you to go california for a better quality Apple in a shorter time.
In the end , you can stay in california happily with people who can accompany you to eat Apple.

see !

do u get what i mean ?
alright , i know only a few people know what was i talking abt with that example.
so what i want to say is :
If something you like make your situation bad , you should have change or thinking and try some other things. Good things will also follow it when you change , because :
changes have got their purposes , it will be the best one in the end.

i came blogging in such a late night ,

it's actually because i cant sleep !

teh tarik's fault !

for you.

2010-06-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

read this every single word carefully , i know you knew it but still.
read it over again , with your heart. =)

when the rain is blowing in your face ,

and the whole world is on your case ,

i could offer you a warm embrace ,

to make you feel my love.

when the evening shadows and the stars appear ,

and there's no one there to dry your tears ,

i could hold you for a million years ,

to make you feel my love.

i know you havent made your mind up yet ,

but i would never do you wrong ,

i've known it from the moment when we met ,

no doubt in my mind where you belong.

i'd go hungry ,

i'd go black and blue ,

i'd go crawling ,

down the avenue ,

no ,

there's nothing i wouldnt do ,

to make you feel my love.

the storms are raging on the rolling sea ,

and on the highway of regrets ,

though winds of change are throwing wild and free ,

you aint seen nothing like me yet .

i could make you happy ,

make your dreams come true ,

nothing that i wouldnt do ,

GO TO THE ENDS OF EARTH FOR YOU

TO.MAKE.YOU.FEEL.MY.LOVE !

i love you arent the three words anymore ,

it's (far) not enough for my love towards you .

maybe ,

~~I.L.Y.~~ I.U.Y.

watch me.

2010-06-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

this is what i decide . hear it clearly , see my every single word clearly :

i will make a win-win situation NO MATTER what !

maybe it only sticks to the old plan .

but if it's double-win situation , it's alright.

i wont pick a choice that make me happy and sad at the other side.

so if you're nt gonna choose a win-win situation ,

i will !

let me be it then,

if you u still think that that's the best plan for you.

i dont mind doing the tough job.

i'm tough , i'm alright , i'm fine !

because i am :

TAN.HUI.MEI.

♥

2010-06-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

stole me a dog-eared map

and called for you everywhere.

my favourite art.

2010-06-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

i dont know if i have ever mentioned about my favourite art.

well , i love african art !! it's like so artistic ,so sexy and most of all , it looks so so wild !!

british art isnt so nice , it gives me no feeling at all.. but african =D

here are some arts , enjoy !

you see you see !! can you feel the wildness ? this is an awesome piece.

this is not bad only , the feeling isnt so strong yet. ( i think it's bcz of the over smooth background )
lot of spaces to improve.

this is something like hang on the wall , so cant see the colour clearly . but it's quite nice.

this doesnt really look like african art , but this is another type of art i like.

it looks very artistic isnt it ?

this is an oil painting. =)

too simple , i would give a 55% out of 100%

this is another type i like too..

it is like , drawings in a drawing - 画中有画.

can u see the drawings in it ? some faces , fishes , butterflies , body and so on.

( i drew once , mayb i should have scan it next time. ) =D

among all these master pieces , altho some art awsome some are nice some are artistic , but there's still the most important feeling that i dont find in those pieces above.

the wildness feeling + the 'taste'.

i suppose it's the colour problem , if it's a dark red , lighter than maroon a lil bit .

it should be perfect !

( something like the font colour i used to describe it , slightly lighter than it.)

talk about african , i suddenly had an idea about an important event .

the theme.

wait and see ! ( looking forward ) =D

the solution.

2010-06-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

not going !

if you ask me why ? i will tell u that u will understand if u love someone.
wateva it is , i can go there anytime.
and after a few arguments and dealing , the problem solved.
this is the way we communicate.
bring out all the problem , discuss it , say wateva we want , then find solution.
wth altho it took my whole afternoon as i planned to take a nap . xD

anyway , you guys enjoy the trip la !
see ! i am being so kind ! give the others d chance. =p
we ( buddies ) go there together next year la ok !?
this one , cheh ~ no friends , no photoshooting session ( i am talking to u qi =p ) , no fun.

i lovey you

nothing matters ,but you.

so?

2010-06-10T19:13:00.000+08:00

i'm in a very big dilemma now ..

there's a trip to pulau redang that is FREE for 4 ( ONLY ) of the sosam committee , it's FOC ( Free Of Charge ) man ! well..wat we need to pay for the 2 days trip is ONLY T-W-E-N-T-Y bucks ! and i already wanted to go pulau redang since last year .. now it's the chance..

but there's the problem.
my dear JK is performing his idiot drama , main cast. wth !?
and it clash the trip ! so i wonder if i should go to the trip or not.

reason for going :
1 : i dont wanna see the scene of hugging and being touched by some other idiots on his ( chest and head and face and wateva ).i know he doesnt want her to touch either but wat to do ? it's the freaking D-R-A-M-A. it's not that i am not generous enough or jealous. wait , alright , i am jealous. but wat ! it's normal right ? if i dont feel jealous , it means that i dont care of him. *grunt*
2 : it's the trip i wanted to go since last year.
3 : it's FOC !
4 : this is the final chance for this year due to the changing of monsoon ( like quite soon ). or else , i will have to wait til next year ( AGAIN )

reason for not going :
1 : drama. ( but i think i'd clarified very clear in the first reason above )

from the whole post , it seems that i should have go , but...
uhh !! wateva !

go or not ?

random.

2010-06-09T23:04:00.001+08:00

~ joke of the day ~
mum : hey you knw there's my friend who is a psychologist..she has gt mental problem now ...
me : why ?
mum : because she meets those stress or lil psycho people everyday . she talks and consults them everyday , she feels so stress at the end , and she also gt a mental prob now. so u better consider wisely..
me : * laugh non stop *

i'd made my decision , anyway.

my life is very contented now , except the fact that joshua had left us.

the last says to joshua :

i remembered you asked me to organize a trip to monkey beach , however , i did not. if it is , it's around this time . i remembered you asked me to help u to organize ur farewell party in d hotel , i did not. i just leave it for you. these two events failed to organize at the end.

sorry , i am not a good president. i am so sorry . your president doesnt rocks as u said. =(

maybe god loves you more , because you're really a great person.

and it might be a relief for you , you wont suffer in earth anymore , enjoy youself in heaven !

you're always so optimistic , so cheering and we wont hear no laughter whenever you're around us.

i remember u once asked me , if i as a taekwondo player fight with a karate player , who will win ?

i told you , i dono ? maybe me ? then smile. and u told me :

NO ! YOU MUST BE CONFIDENT !

then i said it loudly , YES ! I WILL WIN !

you laughed with joy and said : YES MAN ! I LOVE THIS !

you always ask us to be confident , i will remember it forever.

i also remember you told me that me and liang sun make a nice and sweet couple , you like it.

thanks for all those encouragements and memories.

our SOSAM will become a lil dull without you , bcz u're a real active and great member !

we miss you joshua .

may your soul rest in peace and your spirit stays with us.

joshua is the indian boy , the future vet. if he's still here.

life brief candle

what we need to do now is appreciate everyone around you.

theresa's 18th.

2010-06-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE ! I AM BACK ! =D

miss me ? yeh i knw you do .

so , as i promised , this post will be the celebration of theresa's birthday ( omg altho i was way too late to post it up , but still , i post it. )
we celebrated in bayview hotel and feringghi restaurent.

everybody says cheeez ~

we got bored by staying in d hotel , so we decided to go to the beach.

poor lil dog , got caught and guess wat ? he ( actually it's we ) spill some sands on it. O.O

nah..not really.u see ! we love it =D it has its photoshooting session somemore..not bad.

so here are some candid photos. =)

do u knw wat is this ? =)

the three nuts !

the gentlemen.(prove that guys nowadays love to take pic than girls ) =p

the ladies

me n d birthday girl , siao! =D

we both look so retarded especially me.. duhh

awwwww..

we witness the beautiful yet ( touching ) sunset. too bad i dont have the picture here , it's in my mind .

so after an evening of photo shooting session , we went for dinner. some of the pic , lazy to upload all , hee.. the restaurent suck money... duhhh.. the dishes are all super small i mean extremely small ! but for those like yingqi and me who dont really eat too much like guys do , our dishes were like so big. =.=

the birthday cake. this is the FIRST tiramisu i like. bcz the alcohol taste heavier and quite concentrated , with thge coffee.. loving it.

ps : i am nt an alcoholic. lol

group photo. ( notice the shadow on our head , we hv double hair ) =D

once again , happy birthday siao ! may all the bad lucksfly away n attrack fortunes ! have a blast !

end of the post.

wait ! did i say end of the post ? oh so u guys will not believe then , thinking of where's the ' LOVE PHOTOS' ?

right ! it will be in the next next next upcoming post.

reality versus interest

2010-05-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

after considering for a long time , i had finally decided for my future.
yes , i shall not being stubborn.
instead of doing things that i like yet family members do not support , i rather choose something that indeed suit my personality , personal skill and potential and have a great support from them altho it's not on top if my wish list.
After some pratices with friends , i had found my debate skill and interest in it.
i actually should have thanks to sze yun , modeeeeee for reminding me something:
错过是为了遇见对的..

When we let go something today, maybe something which is more suitable is waiting for us in the future.
what i have learnt is , face the reality , interest and reality cant blend together , i mean , in some cases.
and i am just right in this situation,sad.
and you ! yeah you ! dont act as you are my whoever else , because the fact is YOU'RE NOT AT ALL ! dont try to give me advices or comment abt wat i had decided abt my career in he future.
bare in mind , you're just a friend of mine , not even my boyfriend.so save you comments for youself , i dont freaking need it. =)
next year is the year , i gotta prepare myself.
i had decided a new life for myself , it will be a tough one i know , at least i can learn to be independent , as in TOTALLY independent.
sister , i am not naive , i gotta do it and prove it to you that i can , as in , i really can !
do you still remember what i say ?
I CAN , IF I BELIEVE I CAN.
just stand aside and watch alright ? dont care about me.let me be alive or dead on my own.
if i am successful , then be it.
if i fail , stand up high , point at me , and LAUGH !
you've only two ways to do.
i do not need supports too,indeed , i will support you in doing whatever you like,
because i love you,you're still the best sister on earth.

upcoming post :

bayview beach with lot of nice pictures.

staytune. ;)

secret

2010-05-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

i actually did update my blog !!!
didnt u see ???
are you sure no ???
well ... you can view it if and only if you know my password for my blog. =p
*which i doubt only one person reading it *

anyway , exam is still on.
but fortunately , bio and math extension1 had over !!
and most of all , i can still do it , not too bad i guess ! wheeee ~~
left chem !!!! woooo ~~ i'm gotta get 80 and above or i will be so so so dead ! =D
i dont count on eng (listening paper) and math on thurs , coz ,i cant do anything with it..booo ~!!
good thing , i dont take phy ! hoooray !!!!! i dont have any exam after 10am on fri !!!
good luck guys for phy paper on sat !! HAHAHAHAHA..*evil laugh*

promise to update my blog after my mid term exam !!
and promise that my post will be an interesting one.

ciao ~!

just a lil not update's update

2010-04-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

i'm going to wii the world !!!!!!

what a hustle bustle life ..

~chaos~

me love♥

2010-04-07T08:24:00.000+08:00

it had been some times since i last updated my bloggie.*blow dust and clean spider webs*
i'm still quite busy thou .
but well..i received a msg right before i step outta my door which stated english class cancelled.
so i finally can sit down , enjoy the breath of morning fresh air , rhythm which chirping birds compose and look at the atmosphere around my house in the morning.
so then i decided to upload something to share and also to update my abandoned bloggie.
no words , picture only. =)

3 months ago,i knew someone called khor liang sun,jared.he was suppose to meet me just once.however,things didnt go the way it should.so we met up for quite a number of times and celebrated new year eve with my L4TP friends together at butterworth.we found that we actually have quite a lot of similar characters and interests.slowly..........1/1/2010

until he went for his ns,3/1/2010, there i thought , damn this time!we go apart while our relationship just began?sadly,but it's still a fact that he must go.so be it.3 months time.our feeling towards each other didnt fade but it grows stronger and stronger,idk why.everytime he came back for a short break,we spent a quality time together cos we really cherish it.until he come back............

we almost meet everyday.college,hang out,whatsoever.f.y.i : we dont mix dating and studies together.college is the place to study not for dating.so wat happen is just mayb he sits beside me in a few classes but dont really talk.we're rasional,eh?xD

people said it would get boring to see each other everyday but i disagree.

i love you is like by my words,it's by my heart.we had experienced some conflicts,yet i'll hold you by my hand like how you do to conquer it no matter what.this is a promise.

you always make me smile.whenever my mind is out of anything else,you'll just come across my mind.dont ask me why i love you so much,it's d same as how u said,it's a feeling.i dont know the reason that can be stated.i told you abt my history,abt my thinking while i'm in secondary school.i was not wrong,cos you really didnt get angry but you undersatnd it.i think it is a good thing afterall.good thing that i wont trust a man easily and right now the only guy i trust is you.it really brings you lot of afvantages.wooahh..

the pic i love most

remember the 'seventy' gift ? and remember the things we're gonna LOA it? yeahh..that's the things i want most.frankly speaking. so,let's live with it until god takes away the last air i breath.

you mean everything to me.

effing !

2010-03-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

wat the fuck man !
i am super pissed now !!!
i just watched a video in youtube, the title is called 活活被打死..
it's somewhere in indonesia i guess..
i dono wat's wrong with those fucking men who beat the innocent woman ..
not only beat til she is dead and also they use the brick to throw on her head , so y' know.. whole red patch on the floor..

this is the point here :
no matter wat she did , she definitely DONT deserve to be PUNISHED TIL DEAD by HUMAN-BEING! at least , if it's a yes , she must get punished under the law.
wat the fucking point is there to beat the woman til she is dead in public !??!
who are they to determine if she deserve the 'death' or not ??!
wat the fuck is wrong with them ?
i 've totally outta idea of wat the hell were they thinking !
isnt there something called 'conscience' and 'sympathy' ?!?
wat the hack !
now those who involved in the 'punishing action' , i am sure they will definitely get the karma from god.
i still believe that god has His right decision to be made.

T-juncion

2010-03-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

eighteen, an important stage in life.
what i gotta do is to choose the pathway for the rest of my life.(mayb it's until i retire , which is for the next 30 years )..

i know what i will take next.
but deeep inside my heart , i always ask myself :
am i really happy with this choice? am i really really happy with it ? am i interested in it ? is this suitable for my characteristic ?
i can hear a weak voice saying : no.
so i will go on and ask myself again : but why am i still choosing it ?
apparently i remain silence, because i knw the answer well..as in , very very well..
no matter how much everyone of them hope me to go for this ambition , somehow.....i ask myself ....
sorrowful , isnt it ?

what my real ambition is to be a outstanding xxxxx .
but there goes the problem when i think further of my life.
there will definitely be a conflict between X and Y , which i know there will be a sacrifice of either one.to me , both of them are equally imporant !! i dont want to lose this aspect bcz of that aspect.
now , i am really standing in front of a T junction. sigh ~~

am i really going to ignore the weak voice ? or am i going to accept the way everyone in my family hope.. do i have any other choice ?
to be frank , i actually dont have a direction other than the original ambition.
sigh ~
DILEMMA!!

i am so not happy when i think abt this .

oh god !! help me..

i found you

2010-03-19T19:10:00.002+08:00

that darlie is right.
this is the first exactly right statement i have ever heard..(he's a perfect guy)
no matter how hard i find a reason to deny , i failed.
i was really impressed , really really did.
the word which start from 'P' had nvr been so true , it's so solid and the facts are all shown.
oh my goodnesss..
should i say :
1. thanks god !
2. thanks LOA !
????
i would prefer the latter one, cause other than the basic works i have to do , LOA rules my life and i am loving it =D
so, thanks LOA !! you're my god of law. thank you.
no matter how many appreciate i say , it will never reached the level i want to express.
never mind. as long as i know how much is it will do.
ps: in case you guys start questioning what's LOA .
a law that make me a person it is , i would seriously tell.

i found you.
i love you , my Frank/William Shakespeare.
*inside joke*

quote " you may have the whole world as long as you have michael losier's belief " unquote.

trust me!

as what we used to say , i want to say this one more time.

no matter what , we'll be each other's until the last breath.

happy ? sad ? =l

2010-03-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

spm result is finally released.
alright dude , we're officially graduate ( said by dono-who )
well, i'm very satisied with my result !! =DDDDDDDDD

**********************************************

however , i'm so confused now !!!
i just thought of that question just now.
nowwww... what am i suppose to do ? i dono ? and i cant say a thing ? i wont say a thing ! coz i know i am a rasional thee yet an irrasional me myself.
i know exactly what am i thinking , i know it....
but i really cant say it !! really..just that , i hope i can say and tell....but...i cant...
sucks ! i hate it !!
i know what will happen next , i know , it's just that neither of all of us knw what will be like afterall.
seriously, i'm sad. as in , really sad.
ps: theresa, i was nt yawning just now ( as if u still rmb ) the reason ? theresa , you knw i. i told you.
no worries , i wont say a thing to create dilemma , i PROMISE i wont.
i PROMISED myself that i will be a perfect thee.
i dare not hope either , i dont want to be either kind or selfish , i seriously dont.
i dunwan to think abt it .. pooof !!!
if there's a scale for mood.
i vote myself as negative 100.
if there's a scale for break down point ,
i vote myself as negative 100.
god ,help me !
i dono what to do,what to think,what to say,what to hope..
why am i irrasional ( inside ) ...
somehow , i know the answer very well............

CHEER UP IDIOT , YOU SHOULD FEEL HAPPY NOW !!!

i've so much to say,

yet i cant.

when there's something positive ,

there must be something negative to balance it.

this is the fact.

but can i choose imbalance ?

what a horrible accident

2010-03-09T09:07:00.002+08:00

pongg ~~!! * hon hon hon nonstop *
* the lorry push my car and my car was following it to reverse *
f f f f f f f f f f f f !!!!
f you lorry driver !!!
are you deaf or blind ?!
didnt u hear me hon you for so loud and long ?!
didnt u see my car behind !?
idiot !!! bastard !
there's d story....

everyone was driving straight on the road ( there's only me and the lorry on that street )..
well... just keep moving on.
suddenly , that idiot indian lorry driver reversed his idiot lorry !!!
just right when i saw the reverse light lit up , i ald hon him !
but he was like deaf , he nvr heard me somemore reverse so goddamn fast !!!!!
wat's next ?! bang my car and my car was reversing ! ( as in d lorry pushed my car to reverse nt that i reverse myself )
momentum = mass x velovity.
walaaaaao aaa !!!!!!!
ok la , the velocity is mayb 20++km/h . but the mass !!!!!!
well the momentum is considered big !!
* swear in the car *
then of course , get down from the car and scolded him !!
f him !!
he somemore accuse me for following him so near..
f you ! it's normal driving distance alright , u idiot !
and he said he nvr saw my car frm the mirror ! so you're blind !
how can u get the license ? lml !!!!
i asked for compensation , but he said he did nothing wrong , i am the one who drive too near..
tell u ! if i'm a guy , i am sure i'll f u off !
but no.... i called my parents but end up they said nvm and 'sudah'..
walao a !!! i am so pissed !! it's nt my fault and it's his fault ! why doesnt want him to compensate me !!
it's ntg matters but principal !! if i didnt get compensate tat means it's our fault nt tat effing lorry's fault !
fine !!!!!
now my front car bumper collapse like hell...
wat to do..
can only send it to repair.
wat abt the lorry ?
as u all knw , the lorry has d green colour wood .. wood worr.. of course his effing lorry was ok !
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!
my carr !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the feeling of being pushed by the lorry was terrible ! it's like gonna die soon !!
me and qi were in d car , qi shouted like mad. LOL..
but thanks god i didnt die yesterday.
sigh ~~~~
what a bad day.
i cursed you , you idiot bastard freaking effing goddamn sick son train wreck useless indian lorry ! F.

what matters now is the deja vu

that's the magical science which i dont understand yet interesting.

gonna blog abt it nx time.

what a post

2010-03-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

test is on mon-wed.
*pulls hair and run away*
good thing ! 3 hours on mon , 1 hour for tues n wed.
finish the test at 10pm on wed.
*jump up and down*
rmb how horrible exam was when i was in secondary school , 3 hours a paper , 5 or 5 and the half hours a subject.10++ subjects. 2 weeks++ an exam.
*gasps*\
miss pcghs and remind myself that i gotta go back on this coming sat and sun.
*a glimmer smile*
my dog stares at me and bark at my smile.
*roll eyes*
remember that i should go back to my desk and not blogging.
*walk away with head down*
toooot tooooooot tttooooooooot.
*censored*

CHAOS~
*wave*

2 days 2 days 2 days left..

i miss you like hell ! =D

the answer

2010-03-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

you want to know the reason ? are you sure ?
then i'll just tell you here..
it's because ,
you're so not thankful !! at least if i was happy playing the 'mind-trick' game , i wont pissed !
but no !!
it's just like what you said !
so what else you expect ?
FO,ID.

when i said i'm disappointed ,

i really am.

flu flu go away

2010-03-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

one short lame stuff to tell..

i am sick , a dead flu.
normally i wont eat med. when i'm sick and let my body immunity to fight the disease and i'll just recover in a day . but this is real terrible til i can hardly breath , i cant breath with my nostril.
pathetic huh ?
so i have to take med. which i didnt take med for like years . SERIOSULY . this is d 1st time since the dono-how-many-years-ago.
and guess wat?
i put the pill into my mouth rite ?
then.........i cant swallow it , once i swallow , i'll chock and cough it out again.
until 10 minutes later , the med become smaller ( bcz it dissolves in my mouth ) , then i cant stand the bitterness. and i forced myself to swallow it.
holly ~! really chocked me but finally !!!!! i made it !!
wheeeeee * wipe sweat *
how successful am i.
=D

lame

舍得

2010-02-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

所谓舍得舍得

舍得

有舍必有得

我想这是正确的。

也许你会觉得放下眼前所拥有的

是可惜

但想一想如果你放不下

一切只会越变越糟

倘若你所拥有的是好的

那又怎么说？

我说

只要你我们觉得开心

那就珍惜它

要不

就放开！

一个手掌若如果把沙抓得越紧那堆沙只会流得越快。

过去的只能当回忆或教训

现在的每分每秒只能做好自己珍惜一切

以后的事只能期待。

其实有回忆与教训

生活才会精彩

如`过每一天都是开心什么事都对

那么

对又如何被定义？

舍。得。

只要你会‘舍’ 那你肯定会‘得’

日子就过得开心点吧

不然活着还有什么意思呢？

i'm living my life to the max,

let bygones be bygones,

i promise you i'll forgive myself and forget abt it.

under the fireworks

2010-02-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

under the beauty of the fireworks

i let it witness our love

for all the feeling without words

it's how the frequency works.

you whisper the three words into my ear

for the first time i dont feel weird

there i know i am here

with my heart to feel the atmosphere

i worship you

that's how i feel

for all the disabuse

i dont need an answer to fulfil

resonance,i should say

somehow i reach the bay

love feeling is the pay

i love you , i finally say.

random

2010-02-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

now i realized....
my blog posts are all with picture and lack of words !!
alright , then i'll write a word post now. =)
i rmb u said u like the word post i wrote , coz i've my own thought and u love it so much.
chinese new year ?
it's just a normal cny but my schedule is so full this year. good thing , eh ?
valentine's ?
yeah , this is the first years which valentine's matters/related to me.
it's him, JK. so yeah , it's definitely a nicest day of course !
lot of things happened in the past 5 days.
5 days , it's short ! but no... each and every day is a quality one.
gosh , i still dont bliv my tears drop like water pipe when u leave for ns again . like , seriously ? and yes , now i knw i love you very very very much ! so be it. =)
GOSH !!! I'VE NO IDEA WAT TO WRITE ? DID MY BRAIN RUST OR WAT ?
NOO...YEAHHH .. I AM JUST NOT IN D MOOD FOR BLOGGING.
OKAY. TOODLES ~ CHAOS !

i want you to know , when i tell you i love you , nobody else is able to get any of my love.i mean it. and i know you know. that's why we always love each other =)

SOSAM mangrove planting

2010-02-19T01:39:00.001+08:00

there ! as i already made it very clear , this post will be about the SOSAM activity.

alright , brief intro ?

it's world wet land day , so we went for mangrove planting.

it's located at perak and we gotta go there by boat.

lazy to write , so let the pic talk. =)

by the way !!!! THE SCENARY IS SOOOO AMAZING ! LET'S SEE !!

we're heading to Perak by bus .

this is 'teng teng teng teng' dan and qiqi ! =D

reached the dono-wat-malay-school.

we had nasi lemak as breakfast while waiting for our boat.

angel * know why ? coz zi yang is angel ! ahhahaha

ziyang's nickname --- angel was named after her by me. =p

connie and her crows =D

we the HSC student with our dear bio lecturer -miss shirley ling.

the soccer team , wth

it's the time for wearing life jacket. we were all ready for the boat ride. yeah , we had to go to the place where we plant the mangrove with boat.

yeah !! we're on our way there ! *LIKE*

look at our hand sign , rmb ! this is * like *

omg ! michael yew =p when did u become koon hood ( sleeping buddha )

see !! beside the sea was the 'long leg' house. not bad eh?

see see seee !! nice !?

there ! mangrove !

water splashing

boat beside

well..i gotta be the role model and show good example. so be it , i was the first one who step into the horrible-sticky-muddy-holly-crap-warm-grossy-disgusting-mud !!!!

* yes this is how i feel when i 1st step into mud! *

then it was them ! = D

we started our planting job. omg , i was still cant get used to ut when i took this pic !

look ! can you do this ?!

and we did ! =D

BRAVO !!!

inside the mud , there are LOTS of prawn and crabs , so you may feel something moving or poking our leg when u step into it. anyway , tat was really a precious experience. =)

this is xin yi . seriously ! i dont really bliv u participate in this activity ! great job !

wheee ~~~

mission complete !

and we actually had mud fight ( which was we grab a 'ball' of mud and throwing each other , so if u dun run , you knw wat will happen = D )after we completed the planting. =.= holly.

mission complete !

we went back to the school with our satisfied face. = )

we are in boat 5 ! the others are boat 4 and boat 9

see ! i gv this activity a thumb up ! =D

lunch. nasi melayu. pai ciak !!!! * dislike *

after tat , we went back to INTI again.

group photo !!

everyone say 'like'

thanks everyone for supporting this activity !!

thanks !

PICTURE OF THE DAY :

BELIEVE IT OR NOT ? BUT REALLY !! THIS IS THE SCENARY WE SAW ! IT'S AT KUALA GULA,PERAK WHERE WE PLANT THE MANGROVE. BESIDES , THERE'S LOTS OF SPECIES OF BIRDS ! NO DOUBT ! I HAVE NO REGRETS FOR EXPERIENCING THE FEELING OF STEEPING THE MUD , BOAT RIDE AND ETC !

how nice if you can go with us. =(

SOSAM ROCKS !!!

I LOVE SOSAM.

dan's bday

2010-02-14T00:02:00.001+08:00

ding dong ding dong ding dong * clock ticks 12 times *
tadaaa !! it's daniel ding's 18th bday !! our 2nd bro.
as usual , we went to celebrate , the party was held at his home sweeet home.
we'd photo taking session at the playground near his house.
let's see...
this is the bday boy...

dan's fav toy story ! =D

boon khai and his jun ling reached 1st.

siao lek with dan's tua kong dslr

qi was the one who reached afda them.

qi wants a hug. X)

xiao mei and T.woohoo

lek and qi

qi with her hiao bin

their parallel head..SO FUNNY

krim hood again ! hahahaah..now it's gurt hood ( yogurt hood )

rick n T.

xm and lalapom

2 pairss..applause*

lek's expression

so and dad.

doraemon T.

our face + hand pose. * pai kua *

qiqilala.

two of us cho siao again..

look at d mirror..my hair is so ugly b4 i trim it a few days ago..hahaha

now .. it;'s time for photo shoot. =D

look at them

and look at my expression.

it's time now !!!

emo us.

theresa running.

1 from dan's dslr , 1 from qi's dslr. the power of dslr..

tat's y i always love their tua kong dslr .

and emo.

presenting qiqi

dan the pro photographer and his pro dslr.

another photographer of our gang are qi and zhi hong , but too bad , i dun hv their pro pattern's photo.

we terima wahyu

wait !!!! ladies and gentlemen , watch out for the 'boom'

whee ~

mei n mei

lek loves his son

parents of the kid

boon khai

woohooo

family

he loves his son =)

T the ah ma loves him too

xiao mei

qi loves her son too

hahahaa..

whee ~ i love dan's pro tua kong.

nice !

me n boon khai are the like pole . bk and jun ling are unlike pole. X)

T made qi's signature.qi said she failed.so we will look at qi's original.

nah ! the original

back to dan's house.

look at his collection. GASPS *

IT'S TIME FOR DINNER NOW.=D

everyone is so happiiiee.. =)

and there;s some entertainment.wth..hahaha

see man n zhi hong teng teng teng teng * whistle *

shi hun. =D

eric and andy the gay.

big mouth eric the narrator.

and look at my expression.

buddy.

big mouth eric and me.

and xiao khai. xD

eric and gang organize daniel a treasure hunt. they hide the puzzle everywhere and dan would've to find all , and end up , it's this puzzle ! wow !

sing birthday song time =D

we asked him to close his eyes while he's making his wish. then when he opened his eyes..taddaaa !!! surprise !! the 2 big photo album for him..there's are our L4TP gang photos !!

this is my page.woooo~ qi put JK's photo in my page too. =)

and our L4TP group photo of every outings =D * like + love *

he actually bought us Baskin Robin , but it melts ... geli !!!!!

n the shirt we bought him. qi chose it i suppose.

PHOTO OF THE DAY.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DAN. !

GO TO DO WATEVA YOU WANT !!

你，可以改变结局 !

hope to see you n qi be together ! =)

love story

2010-02-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

it was bio experiment day ( wednesday ) again...

today was an unusual one.

why ??

bcz i created something and took some photos..

i actually spent 1 hour to do that * since the experiment is so easy and we completed it earlier *

1st of all , this is the you know....test tube rack.

nice shot. =D

this is my notes and wuan xin's pencil..

nice shot again ! * vain-ing * xD

now..

today's experiment is abt hydrogen peroxide and it's catalyst ( the composition in potato ) so of course, there's potatoessssss..

there i come out with some ideas.

QUOTE : I GIVE YOU MY HEART TONIGHT.

i was all alone

millions of ppl running into my life and going out again

thou, they're all passangers.

opportunity was awaiting

for the right timing.

until one day , i met the one.

ps: can u guys see there;s another love shape potato among the potatoes ?

when the frequency matched

everything just seem so marvelous

there's no reason

no communications some times

yet tacit is always there.

feeling says it all.

since then

i felt love.

love is expanding

three ? no.

we're always balanced by each other.

2 like + 2 love = double like double love.

right now

i know,

somehow,

WE'RE ALWAYS LIVING ON THIS EARTH FOR EACH OTHER.

ladies and gentlemen

so now , double like + double love.

you like ? you love ?

twist your hand and show me ur sign then .

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY,JK.

you're always the one.

kenangan terindah

2010-02-09T20:33:00.001+08:00

cintaku bukan di atas kertas,

cintaku getaran yang sama,

tak perlu dipaksa,tak perlu dicari ,

kerana aku yakin ada jawapannya.

andai ku bisa merubah semua,

hingga tiada orang terluka,

tapi tak mungkin ,

ku tak berdaya,

hanya yakin menunggu jawapan.

somehow the ans is always the same.

and i love it.

I LOVE YOU , JARED KHOR.

random

2010-02-07T11:58:00.001+08:00

bloggie oh bloggie....
i think i'll send my bloggie into the 'cold palace' in 2010.
i dont have much free time to blog recently..very sorrowful rite /??
it's all bcz i'm too busy this year.
college life , wat to do.
i even hv to study and do my revision during cny..
SORROWFUL !!!
1st assessment is right after exam , well..not right , but near.
okay , i'll stop this post now.
gotta go by my new year clothes . ( see , i still havent finish buying. )

anyway , there's 2 interesting posts tat i will surely blog abt it.
stay tune.
1.daniel's bday. ( breath taking ! wait til u see the pic ) woooohoooooo ~ WOT !
2.mangrove planting. ( fun , disgusting yet precious experience )

upcoming event : SOSAM HOLLOQ BBQ NIGHT !

do join the fun peeps ! ( only for SOSAM members )

shi hun's 18th birthday

2010-01-31T12:56:00.001+08:00

tadaaa ~!! i'm here again !

miss me ?

awwww sorrry peeps !

am too busy recently . life's busy nowadays.

so the latest event is: shi hun's bday !

LALALAPUTA

we went to his kampung - getak sanggol to celebrate his bday.

he said the scenary there is nice , so we went !

let's see ...

EYE ON SHI HUN !

b4 i started off with anything .we went to see man;s house 1st. let's see wat's my expression ! hahahaha !! u knw why?

bcz someone called me and mess up with me ! B*TCH ! ruin my moooood !! fine .. 4gt abt it

boat ride to shi hun'n kampung .nahh ! kidding.. so this charming scenary is located at shi hun's kampung ! really awesome isnt it ?

we walked to the sea side , walk along the bridge( it's build at the middle of the sea) so we can walk and enjoy the sea breeze , i love it. =)

on the way to the sea side.. we started to tell jokes , narrate and whatsoever.

qi and theresa cho siaooooo...

me , cho siao....LOOL !!! * pai kua + hand pass by slowly * * inside joke*

okay now...photo taking session.. whahahaah

qi'smasterpiece. =D

and mine. LOL

zhi hong's masterpiece.

waahh..thisss picc....... they quote it for me..hahahahaa ..

soooo... wth .. LOL

wheeee ~~ ^.^Y

qi the status.LOL

theresa ! woohoooo

shooo them away ~ hahahahah

the three dudes...woooots

zhi hong and thersa ??? hmmmmm ????

look at mrs y*** frustrated expression 1st..haahahaha

nahh ~ this is the one ! WOOHOOOO !! WHISTLE !!!! HAHAHAHAHA

lek being emo kid. =p

so what were we lookng at ?? o.O

JELLY FISH !!!!! 134567890. hate it !! coz it stings me !!!! errr..not now , but , 2 years ago , qi kena tooooo hahahah

wheee ~

we wanted to see sunset..but too bad.. no sunset to seee.

so we went back to hun's old house. whooo ~

we were all sitting at the compound there and talk. =)

it's the most important time now...

shi hun;s surprise !!!

.......................

eye on shi hun ! the ferry or what.. idea : see man.

o.o

she put the most efforrt into it too !

shi hun loves it !=D

group pic ! woohooooo ~!

so the members who attend were:

qiqi ~!

me ~!

theresa ~!

ps : this pic ada feeling !

see man ~!

herrick ~!

yo!zhi hong ~! hahaha

lek jian ~!

SHI HUN ~! LALALAPUTA ~!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST !

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY , HUN / OUR OLDEST BRO IN THE GANG( 24/1 )

MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE.

upcoming : dan's bday .

31/1

wat a tragedies.

2010-01-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep again...
now the reason is bcz of the 5 young ppl from clhs.
feeling down ..
2 of them are friends' brother.
i dono wat to say , and i dono how to express my feeling.
sucks...
anyway !!
THEY WILL COME BACK SAFELY !!
GOD , I BEG YOU !! =(
to feng yu , be strong !!!
u hv to bliv tat ur bro will swim back sooon !!!
he can !! he can he can he cann !!!!!!!
and you , be strong !!!!!!!!!!!!

and to jason ch'ng and mr.chin .
RIP !!
throw all ur burdens and just..rest in peace !
we will always rmb this. =(

wat i can do is only pray.

i hope He heard wat we are begging for.

random

2010-01-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

shopping at queensbay with sis n mum.

i saw a bag and i wanted to buy , but i didnt buy it on that day..

teruk.

alright , at least i will go to get it when i go to qb ~

whooo ~~~

reli love that bag !!!!!

then we saw this dress which my sis is wearing.

it's very nice ! but guess what..

the design at the back has gt a lil bit prob , it's like vy loose at the back and made the whole dress very untidy ' lam nua ' .. so....

sigh ~~ what a waste!

mayb it's bcz my sis was not so fat to fit the size..

and of coz it goes d same way to me too..

so.....

sigh ~!

how nice would it be if the design behind fit our size.

okay now..

why is everyone saying me n my sis look alike ?

okay... maybe maybe.. how would i know.

they said if my hair is long like hers , it will be even more similar..

well...my hair is growing longer than longer .

gonna reach the lowest part of my neck anyway. xD

wheee ~~

so i said nothing is perfect.

a horrible dream

2010-01-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

i nap afda coming back from college AS USUAL .
but today...today....
what happened to today ?!

i napped and i dreamt something !!
scared me to death !
it is like this :

i went to INTI ( but this college's structure is different from the INTI ) .
it has an internal n external car park.
i used to park at the external car park in the dream.

one day , i heard the news from my mum said that the police had finally discovered why is there something which belongs to my bro's gf at my home ( especially my room ) .
it's because there's a mentally corrupted old man ! he look very very horrible !!! ( the main character in my dream )

he look something like a witch ! yes ! his nose and all , but his is the real person witch , so it made himself even more horrible.
he was like he knw some black magic and whatever !
in the dream , he can sneak into ur room easily .
so he always sneak into bro'gf room and take her stuffs , then sneak into my room and put'em in my room.
and that is also why her stuff appears in my room . ( in the dream )
so there we started to be afraid.

one day , i went home from INTI , it's quite late and the day was covered by the black velvet cloth - night.
i park at the external car parking as usual.
then when i came down , i saw tat old man standing beside the stairs behind the wall..
I SAW HIM !
he used to stalk at me in tat dream.
and tat day , i was alone !

but this picture cant reflect that old man and at all bcz this is so not horrible at all !!! but it's something like this la, he stood there n was waiting to stalk me.
i remember he said this sentence : LET'S SPARE THIS MOMENT NOW !
and there's a MCD beside college . the business is running well , so the customers were kind of made the reataurent crowd.
the old man said again : BUT FIRST , LET ME HAVE A DRINK FIRST.
i heard it ( bcz he was just stalking behind me )
then he went into the mcd and dashed into the counter , get his soft drink and started to peek through the window.
and me of course , i found a board or what , and i hide behind it so tat the old man cant see me.
the old man started to be panic bcz he still dont see me pass by ( as i ald hiding there ) .
he ran out from the counter and came out and searched for me .
he walked a lil round , so i was like , hiding and i hv to move a lil bit surrounding the board so tat he dont see me.
he cant find me !
he then ran into mcd to see if i was still behind or anywhere.
and i.......
RAN AWAY LIKE A ROCKET IN FEAR ..
RAN RAN RAN RAN RAN..

and i was awaken !!!!!
and i found myself breathing quickly , and my heart beat was increasing to the maximum.
sweat scroll down my face and my neck.
feeling a lil bit dizzy.

WHAT A DREAM !!!
SCARE ME TO DEATH.

ps : the old man in my dream also has the same look with the psycho old man who sometimes walk around near my house .( and tat's also y i was afraid ) but it's just tat the dream one is too hyperbola tat the nose and all are horrible !

the psycho man who wander near to my house is also a horrible old pervert ! he was like , he treat other's gate ( the gate has square design which is made by the think hard errrrr something like the 铁门's material . sorry , dont knw wat it's the name in english. ) as woman's errr... you knw , the private place. and then he mustarbate with that square shape .

WAT THE F*CK !!!! HORRIBLE !!!!!!

i saw it accidentally through the window one morning , as i cant go out like this if tat pervert is there , so i asked my dad to go out 1st , he then kept =.= his 'thing' and walked away.

ps : i didnt see his 'thing' but i saw this at the angle behind him.

WHAT THE HELL !!! THE WORLD IS SO HORRIBLE , FEEL SO UNSECURE !

say hi to him

2010-01-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

hello hellllo...
let me intro. u this 'unique' people.
the name is liang sun ( my so called , JK ) =)

these photos were took on new year eve which i post it in the previous post.
yea , so he is one of the driver who drove us there =D
okay , let's see....

this photo must be zh's masterpiece. =.=

coz he used to take ppl's pic from the angle below.
so ppl look fat ! but no doubt , i grow a lil but fatter =X
coz i always eat supper hahahahaha.
hey JK i dunwan to upload the photo u like . ( the d.c 1 )

okay ... so , we went to autocity and 'pit' L4TP at lek's condo.. sorry guys.. but u all said it will be crowded , so chose nt to go also rite. xD

b4 we went out , this is their so called 回头一眸 LOL

we went there for dinner at manhatten fish market. sat there for around 3++ 4 hours , online. and the waitress was like : sir , can i keep ur plate . ( actually we purposely left some fries there so tat we can say we havent finished our dinner and still can sit there online ) XD they were so unlucky to meet customer like us. who cares.xD xD

3...2...1...happy new year !!

then we went mad and did something crazy !! really !

so this is the production of the madness.

we simply asked strangerssssss to take photo.

1 of them is a lil boy..his expression X)

okay...

time for revision now..

bye bye !

all i want it you.

you're my only one. =)

i love you

new year eve

2010-01-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

hey dude ! happy new year ( altho it's very late to say )

but who cares , it's still a new year thou.

so we went to lek's condo at butterworth ( no one live there , so we went for an apartment stay )

1st of all , the very very very 1st thing we did is .....

tadaaaa !!!

photo shoooting session . ( wth )

okay , let's see :

theresa and i

shi hun and i ( he said : oops , someone is going to kill me =.= )

woohooo !! me n qi !

me : oh i wait i am not ready . qi : i am waiting for you untill i get impatient !

me and herrrrrrrrick. hehh

okay now .. i am ready..so here we statred our sham pet pattern.

performing : T.U.K.H

oh no oh no !!! they wanna divorce so they snatched lalapom.

wheee ~~ apparently qi won , and zh involved into the relationship.

qi said : i am one-to-many-relationship ! so.... things happened like this.

xiu n andy couldnt bare to see it anymore.. so they showed us wat's called unconditional love. *applause*

qi said : i bu shuang ! i still prefer one-to-many-relationship. so she decided to get back to lek to make the relationship more n more complicated..lol

dan jealous , so he decided to be a gay / pon. coz his heart broke.

weee wangg wanng weeee waanng waangg..ting ~! here come the 2 angels .

they booooooooooooooooooooom in ! and....

who knows , theresa's partner ( vampire ) appeared.

so 2 of them decided to fight them.maa lee maaa lee hom !

see ! lalapom is floating !

zhi hong victory .. ting*~!

they were happy so they belanja us makan mamee monster ~

unfortunately , huimei and jared say : okay , leave the mamee for urself , we are going to somewhere else n enjoy our Manhatten fish , Starbucks. wooooooo..

they were desperate , so they played ps2.

so these were their expression to say goodbye . LOL

they angry , so they dunwan to wait for us to take group pic.

ohh noo ~~ how sad !

-the end-

let's see wat's going up next.

next post will be :

L4TP ! WE ARE AWESOME , ARENT WE ?

I LOVE YOU ALL ALWAYS .

to : all the L4TP members.

WE ROCKS !

mood swing

2010-01-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

not in a good mood...
i should be happy as i just went shopping and bought some stuffs...
but ...
i remembered tat nightmare again....
apparently i am okay , but....
noww , feel so sucks..
i dono if u know that i really feel sucks , but , alright , i trust ur 6 sense. =)

***********************************************

I DETERMINE PEOPLE BY THEIR PERSONALITIES OR THEIR ATTITUDE BUT NOT THEIR STATUS/JOB.
so dont u ever think that you're something or anything sooo excellent.
in my mind , you're just a lump of shit !
and i wondered why tat kind of stuff happened to you , now i get the answer .
it's because :
YOUR TALKING SKILL IS A 'ZERO' AND THE WAY U SPEAK IS SO SUCKS !
and now i wonder why she........
wat the hell ....
f* it off man...
really pissed off now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
urrgghhhhh ~
YOU ARE TOTALLY A SICK MAN , SUCKER !

************************************************

now i have to wait for another 5 days ..
the feeling is so s* ..
i am missing you a hell lot darling.

ps : forgive me for being rude , i am just a lil bit too angry.
toodlessssssssss...
full stop.

i love you ,my jk

as always.

生辰八字

2010-01-09T16:04:00.001+08:00

do you know there's something called 生辰八字 ?
it's some chinese tradition says.
sometimes they said when the 生辰八字 is not suitable , you will hv some crush with them.
not as in into-them's crush , but dislike-them crush !
i think i believe it !
okay , this is not something aunty , coz i can feel it.
sometimes i will dislike someone at the very first sight.
you know , the feeling is nt to be described in words.
but yeah.. just be it.
sometimes , you dun need to see them , just by the way we chat a lil bit in the net , i will feel uneasy .
just , dislike and wanna quarrell or argue with their every says.

so , i know i am weird.
but according to some friends , they will too !
so i dun thin it's my fault rite ? at least , it's something matters 生辰八字..
i was trying not to dislike him as he is my (ok dude , dun simply guess , definitely not someone in our age )......
but but , as i said , mayb our 生辰八字 are wrong or wat , i still dun like him !
even sometimes i will type something and nothing's matter and sent him , but... ishhh..
u knw , just typing , nt saying it out or wat .. so why not ? it's just for my someone's sake..
gahhh... but i will nvr told her that i dislike him , coz i love her ! and i know she loves him !
actually i had hint her something when she always.........
and sometimes when the another 2 ppl talk abt him , i showed some irritating sign , means tat i dont want to talk abt that person...i knw he didnt offended me or what , i told u i cant explain !!
so....slap me / mok me / mao me / sakai me / whatever..

or mayb the pisces ppl have something wrong with his horoscope.
coz my friend who is also a pisces .
altho she doesnt dislike him , but he dislike her...
so , i guess it's really sometihng abt the natural thing. forget abt it.

anyway , i am trying my best not to hate him.
so.....alright.
i hope i wont hate him as i am going to see him very soooon.

my dear you , i know you knw who i mean , so just forgive me , coz i knw u love me hahaha..
and you knw me very well.. i am weird at time. =)
alright , mayb i will go to find my friend or anything when he is here , IF , i still dun feel comfortable with him.
ps : dun ask me abt this thing after you see this , i will definitely give you : NO REASON, I JUST DISLIKE HIM.

take it or leave it.

nothing's related to me

2010-01-07T23:15:00.002+08:00

whatever..

who cares ?

不懂

2010-01-07T15:33:00.001+08:00

不懂为何不懂
为什么爱你？
不懂为什么
为什么想你？
就是不懂
为什么是你？
为什么？
无聊的我
在想你
无聊的夜
在想为什么

-from y-

无聊的不懂~

what a day

2010-01-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

isshh !!!
i am having a super bad luck today !!! gahh..
guess wat...

i had chemistry class today and we were discussing abt the answer for the homework..
then sometimes we just feel tat the ans doenst make sense , so we laugh ..
after that , the lecturer scolded us with :
girls and boys behind ! stop talking and i had observed that you guys were talking since i came into the class.
wth , we were being good and just discussing homework...
fine !
it's bcz we sat behind , she doesnt knw what were we actually doing , so..... forgiven. i am nt going to hate her nor dislike her.. =)

2nd thing , i kena saman (penalty) from the freaking police !!!
bcz i ........... illegal parking . X)
fine ! dunwan to talk abt this anymore , what the toooooot.....

-end-

somehow

college life is awesome

and i'm loving it.